My Nostalgia Demons Won ----------------------> (ppl seeing my spider decor at work) ⊙▂⊙ /╲/\╭(ఠ్ఠఠ్ఠ˓̭ ఠ్ఠఠ్ఠ)╮/\╱\ ┐( ͡° ʖ̯ ͡°)┌ ("its not even that big of a spider")

I chose to indulge my nostalgic side tonight by going through old letters. After reading a couple from my Dad, I became appreciative that I was raised by very sensitive parents. Sensitive could be bad at times in strange ways. Their worry or expressiveness often influenced both my decisions and disposition (to whatever degree you can gain disposition from nurture vs nature... idk), but I think it ended up being beneficial. Of course there are, at times and by those who know me best, allegations of being "overly-sensitive" but I really do not gaf in the slightest. I feel what I am going to feel and I willllll be speaking on it. The whole train of thought with my parents being sensitive reminded me of a sweet moment from my Mom's birthday party one year. My dad rented out a restaurant and had a whole shebang. A couple of her friends and her sister spoke, I sang a song, and my Dad attempted to speak as well. He gave a disclosure before he began speaking: "I know that I am going to start crying, and that just goes to show what kind of mother and wife Miriam has been." I was shocked he didn't make a joke. I vividly remember preparing to laugh and then realizing how honest he was being. I used to cry a lot as a kid from embarrassment. I had friends and whatnot, I was pretty extroverted so I had no problem finding someone to chit chat with, but I had a lot of quirks and such. Consequently, there were some kids that made me feel very bad about those things! Even after that problem concluded, I think I naturally felt very embarrassed by myself, and growing into a person. It is weird getting to know yourself! Anyways, I quite like being sensitive to things, and I mention this often. I think people should be more sensitive, I think people should let themselves feel more emotions and experience a wide variety of situations. I dunno man people just need to let their guards down. Maybe that is an overenthusiastic opinion, but deep down - despite doubts - that it what I feel.

Whateverrrr whateverrrr, enough of all that oh god. haha who let the dogs (inside thoughts) out am I right? honestly just normalize being super cool and swaggy or whatevr i guess - its not a big deal, women want me and fish fear me and all that other cool stuff