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me!

Category: Blogging

thought the photo was kinda boring, ignore my acne. I got my hair shined today or something, who knows what i got, it looks really good!! it's so soft now, it was so freaking dead my mom FORCED ME to get it softened. Personally I don't care if my hair is dead or healthy, as long as it looks good. I loveee my digi cam who would i be without her? x3 » Continue Reading

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growing up

Category: Blogging

I watch the TV light flash upon the old paintings on the wall; the room is so dark I can barely see them. I look into every detail on the canvas that was painted for me on my eighth birthday, I see white streaks in the unicorn's hair I never noticed before. I think of how much my dad loves the one painting I made years ago. I'm quiet, the sound fades from my mind. He holds me tighter, but I can on... » Continue Reading

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talk more

Category: Life

Today I went to the record store. I was shy at first, afraid to ask questions, but I decided to ask anyway. I asked him if they had any fall out boy, he said no. I found a Soundgarden cd and checked out. It was quiet and slightly awkward at first until I brought up his job. "It must be cool owning a record store, music is great." He got excited and we started talking for about 30 minutes before I ... » Continue Reading

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im so happy

Category: Romance and Relationships

I'm in such a great place right now, I love hanging out with this guy. I have never connected with someone so quick; I can actually be myself around him.  My whole life I have always felt so out of place. I was always late to things, at least I feel that way. I had my first kiss at 15, 2 days ago. I have never been so bold with someone like this, I feel like I've known him forever. He's so comfort... » Continue Reading

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kiss

Category: Romance and Relationships

I want to kiss his face all day. I want to poke him and bite him and lick him. I want to stare at him for hours. I want to share bubblegum and inhale the smoke in his mouth. I really like this guy. kissing is like my favorite thing ever, it's so fun and so cute ^w^ can't believe I was missing out on that for 15 years, at least I got my goal of having my first kiss before I turn 16! » Continue Reading

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coming out

Category: Friends

I recently came out and I realized, it's really not that bad.  Thank god none of my friends cared. I was scared they would feel uncomfy so I reassured them that I don't have a crush on any of them. They just laughed. It's like they didn't care, no opinion on me was changed. That felt good. I realized that I actually do matter to people.  I feel bad but good at the same time? I guess I feel kind of... » Continue Reading

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i broke up with him

Category: Romance and Relationships

I feel so guilty for the way i treat him. I didn't even breakup with him because of anything he did, i just hate the person i am when i'm around him. this sounds terrible, which it is, but i was talking to this guy(flirting) and i finally told him i have a bf. i told him how i don't like my bf but i'm not sure how to break up. My friends have been telling me for ages to break up with my bf but for... » Continue Reading

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im so aloneee

Category: Romance and Relationships

I want to be hugged, I want to be caried, I want to be kissed, I want to be taken care of, I want to be face to face with someone, I want you to breakup with me, I want you to stop being such a pussy, I want you to leave me alone, I want to be intimate, I want you to dance with me, I want you to have some self-respect, I want that curly haired guy who would never date me. I want him to love me, no... » Continue Reading

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what is my life

Category: Life

I was just driving around and getting food with my bf and sister, and we decided to hang out with another buddy! We go over to his house to pick him up, we drive around the block, and he pulls out some weed. It feels like 2 degrees outside, so we decide to smoke it in his basement. We ask if his parents are going to be home anytime soon, he says probably not. Well, we are mid smoking the blunt whe... » Continue Reading

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i miss skating

Category: Life

i need it to stop snowing so i can actually go outside without freezing my tits off.. i miss skating + theres a newish skate park by my house i really want to go to. anytime i've been there, i was just smoking with a group of friends. I haven't skated in ages, mainly cause no one really does it anymore, but i want to start doing it more, i just need it to get above 20 degrees... everyone in my tow... » Continue Reading

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internalized homophobia

Category: Romance and Relationships

i try to force myself to like guys but I can't help it I don't have anyone to talk to about this, my friends barely know. I literally told my bf today but he brushed it off like i was joking, i'm not joking... I genuinely love girls and i always have. The only crushes I remember having when I was younger, where all GIRLS I know i should break up with him but maybe i'm making this up. I mean ive be... » Continue Reading

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ugh

Category: Romance and Relationships

people annoy me so bad i cant stand it I hate my boyfriend final boss i'm literally lesbian, i'm only with him in hopes of converting myself. sucks to say it doesn't work.  everything he does pisses me off, I wish it was easier to find a girlfriend. all i want to do is kiss girls, the thought of my bf icks me out, his reposts make me gag, i want nothing but a friendship out of him. I wish i liked ... » Continue Reading

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