im so happy

I'm in such a great place right now, I love hanging out with this guy. I have never connected with someone so quick; I can actually be myself around him. 

My whole life I have always felt so out of place. I was always late to things, at least I feel that way. I had my first kiss at 15, 2 days ago. I have never been so bold with someone like this, I feel like I've known him forever. He's so comforting and I feel so loved when I'm with him. We have an age gap, but we still relate to each other on levels I have never felt related to.

My sister and my best friend (they're both older by a year) are so weird about me dating. They think me hanging out with a guy is me immediately putting my body up for sx, IT'S NOT. I want to be loved too. As an emo neurodivergent teenage girl who has never had many friends, I just want to fit in for once. I already feel so different, why are people constantly babying me?!?!

Also, they both have made me lie for them so they can go suck dick. 

Me and him aren't even really doing anything bad! Yes, we hangout in his car but we can't go to either of our houses (I'll have him come to mine once I work up the courage to tell my parents). We mainly just kiss and laugh and cuddle. I mean yeah there's some more than that, but we have not seen each other without clothes!!!

15 is NOT too young to peck someone they really like on the lips.