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Category: Writing and Poetry
Pages after pages, My ink has run dry. I am trying to say something, Won't you give listening to me a try? Why are you not speaking to me? I am such a lonely child. So tired,timid,and angry,like a wild rat caught in a trap. Am I not your blessing, Was I not asked for from the skies? Then why do I have to shoulder the fear of losing you When I don't even love you as mine. Your shallow words,your mo... » Continue Reading
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Watching the leaves sway on a breezy summer night, as some strange indiscernible animal chirps nearby, makes me feel close to God. Or maybe it's just myself that I feel connected to and God is just a veil encompassing my endeavor of trying to find my place in an incomprehensible vast universe which is so huge that I do not individually compose even a miniscule of it. This discovery in itself is no... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
Yesterday when I was in surgery and losing my consciousness,I was thinking about you.I was thinking about how I was with you and wondering why you felt that I was not worth the effort anymore. Why did you not like me anymore and was it easier to like her rather than me. I was and still am hard to deal with I know but why could you not bear with me just a bit longer and I would have stopped showing... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Sitting in an open lawn My mind wanders I think about all the paths I've taken And the times my life faltered I called my mom to talk to her She seemed happy on the phone She told me she cut her hair She had wanted to do it since long My father and I, We didn't talk much We just said our goodbyes I asked about my cat, they said she seems fine And then, the call was cut from » Continue Reading
Category: Art and Photography
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Category: Art and Photography
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Category: Writing and Poetry
If I asked God to kill me,for the weight of everything became unbearable,will God grant me my wish or will I be exempt from his grace for trying to defy the course of nature? If I were granted this wish,will I burn in hell for not being able to save myself or will I be given the salvation,the search for which drove me to where I stood? If I take my own life will the wrath of God aim to burn me to ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
The things is,I either feel intense emotions or empty all the time, and so I cannot sit with myself without any distractions. At all times I feel the overpowering need to either observe myself or create myself,just simply being is too much for me. Being too much feels better than being nothing so I fill myself with the hollow shell of something that once was alive to thrive off of its skeleton,the... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I say I have the soul of a devotee, but what I want is to become a slave. I say I want to stay soft and open, but I want them to tear my skin apart, shred by shred, until my bare entrails remain;and maybe then they'll be able to understand my willingness to sacrifice myself. I'll give them anything and everything they ask of me, except for the things that I seek for myself, autonomy and the abilit... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
To K, My nana died some time ago. I am not sure about the exact date but it was probably on 15th January. He had been dying for a long long time now. Since the day my nani died,his soul had started to rot inside him,it's just that his body started to detoriate recently after his mind could no longer hold his shallow will to live.On the day of his death,I grieved.I cried my eyes out. I had been pra... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
Putting aside the grief of losing someone and the seemingly inextricable yearning that follows it,how does one deal with the process of losing someone?how does one allow themselves to watch the rope of a shared bond getting cut thread by thread until a single strand remains, the event of breaking of which seems more like a catharsis from holding onto a futile cause of reconciliation than the fear ... » Continue Reading
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