The view from halfway down

Sitting in an open lawn

My mind wanders 

I think about all the paths I've taken 

And the times my life faltered 

I called my mom to talk to her 

She seemed happy on the phone 

She told me she cut her hair 

She had wanted to do it since long 

My father and I, We didn't talk much 

 We just said our goodbyes 

I asked about my cat, they said she seems fine 

And then, the call was cut from my side 

On my way back to the room 

I thought about all the good in the world 

I reminisced about the girl who smiled at me today 

Maybe to her I was someone 

"The good doesn't really matter anymore does it"

I thought and I smiled 

"I really am going to do it this time"

Was all that was on my mind 

The plan was perfect 

The painkillers were stacked 

From when my hands broke 

The wind was blowing 

From the open window of the tenth floor 

My feet were still on the ground 

But all I could do was imagine

The view from halfway down 

I couldn't wait for the moment when

Gravity will crush my body and mind 

And all that I was and could have been 

Will be erased in no time 

As I stood on the edge 

I remembered a quote I had read 

" A temporary silence for an eternity of nothing,

Is that a worthy sacrifice?"

I called my mom and I cried 

She told me everything will be alright 

I went to my room and i wept alone 

I went to the corner of the bed and i slept alone 

I went to the open lawn and thought about all the good in the world 

Maybe I still want to become someone

I still wonder about

The view from halfway down 

But i think I'd rather have 

My feet on the ground .