i just glanced back at some of my entries and its all me complaining about things and being like woe is me yada yada yada and its all about my looks and my love life. yikes thats lowk embarrassing. ill work on new topics of depression and will give updates. till then, » Continue Reading
i wish i could write my own fan fic some times cuz wdym the things i want to happen on ao3 isnt exactly how i plan it out in my head df lollll » Continue Reading
⋅˚₊‧ 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅ ────୨ৎ──── ࣪ ˖ 𖦹°⋆ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ ive come to the point of realizing im not made for the beauty standard. and im saying this in the least corny way possible if thats even a » Continue Reading
turning 20 for me was a lot less mourning my childhood and teenage years and alot more of me mourning the version of myself that could have been had my mom not die. i fear i will never feel feminine enough to even exist a woman and i feel so bad how much i see other women as competition. idk i blame the patriarchy or the mongols or whatever. but i dont even feel like im on the same scale as other ... » Continue Reading
today wasnt so so bad externally but internally why am i going through it hello ??????????? loloolololololo. my femininity is so fragile and my self perception is so chopped in my mind legit everyone hates me or is making fun of me constantly. esp since this past mothers day and this year in general ive been so envious of ppl w moms. like having a mom is such a gift yet a necessity and i feel like... » Continue Reading
# losing more and more of myself to the point of me longer being able to identify who "me" even is considered anymore and losing the want of discovering the new "me' because what if i dont like her # yaoi » Continue Reading
me listening to snow strippers af. omfg i LOVE SNOW STRIPPUHHHHHHSSSSSSSS. bruh i so badly dont want to overplay them like i overplay legit all music i like. im suprised i didnt overplay pinkpantheress to the point where i couldnt stomach it beca » Continue Reading