2.26 werk crynnn

haiiiiiiiii...          

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i hate hate HATE my job. somehow i accidentally requested 3 weeks off? its giving they softcore fired me bcuz that was NAWT me. if it was me,,, oopsies i was manic. but ever since i havent had work every day of the mf week every minute of the mf day... life has been good. i suddenly dont wanna kms anymore yayyyy but yeah i am rediscovering myself because the entire time ive been in college ive been working at fck ah chipotle and i havent even been able to explore the campus or even myself like gah dayum. negl idek if i can curse on this website but whatevs. but yeah i really hate being employed and it probs was the root of my depression because since my job hiatus ive gone from severe depression to normal depression yassssssssss ( ﾉ･o･ )ﾉ

n e waysssss, ever since ive switched my major i feel alot less insecure. idk if its just my college but the mental hierachy everyone has over each other regarding majors is SO annoying like get a job or sumn ಠ_ಠ. LOL OH WAIT U CANT!!!! AND NEITHER CAN I!!! WERE ALL COOKED CHATGPT GOT US ALL. (im scared breh) ʘ‿ʘ

but ive been less depressed everyday cuz i legit stay on the phone with at least one person at all times. but its kinda sad af cuz im always alone and once the phone call ends is when i realize how lonely i still am and was even throughout the call. U ´ᴥ` U OUUUU THAT WAS DEEP LEMME KEEP SPITTING. i feel like all the friends i make like each other more than they like me which is so valid cuz i feel like theyre all way funnier and easier to talk to than me and i sound so insecure but i feel like its lowkey true and im ok w it fr fr. its just a sad realization that im fckn weird omfg. ᇂ_ᇂ

 i can never just be normal. i feel like i push everyone away bcuz of this or bring in the wrong energies around me cuz the mfs who do want to stick around want to use me as their little play thing who they can just tell to dance whenever they say so. LOL sorry im watching a larray video and why ts so funny.... anyways... u know that feeling of getting a new phone and ur old phone in which you used to confide in and identify with and bring with you everywhere do everything with. but after getting the new phone,,, your old one just becomes a block of metal. it becomes a shadow of what was and what couldve been. but also what all is better about the new phone, the new phone who you can do what all you did with the older phone but better....

n e ways im getting so deep and for what. i deadah hope no one i know ever reads this this is so perosnal but something about this public site being nogu makes me feel like im actually sharing my feelings and not bottling them all up. i think im gonna try to make my page look cool and maybe write some songs in here LOL. i need new hobbies i wanna make beats and want to expand my magazine. but most of all i wanna go to sleep so                                                             BAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII 

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