[9:15am] i've been hurting quite a bit for the past day or so. right around lunch time yesterday i just got hit with a wave of body aches (?) and it's been so bad i cant even watch reels without needing to pause and lock in lol. i put a question mark after body aches because im not sure if that the right term. it feels like random parts of 1-3 random bones are secreting/coated in diluted but stron... » Continue Reading
[10:45am] so its actually not arthritis because i got more blood test results back and everything was negative. so most likely i have lupus, but i still definitely have some kind of autoimmune disease. i cleaned the beach on saturday morning and had a good time. that night i started hurting quite a bit so i took some tylenol but it didnt help. its stopped working a couple weeks ago, but im unable ... » Continue Reading
[11:15am] hi guys sorry for being inactive for so long TwT during the summer i spent a lot of time playing roblox in my room and getting ready for college. in july my dog paralyzed her back legs and had surgery to fix it, and i spent the rest of the summer sitting with her while she recovered. im now in college in southern california, which is kinda crazy. i haven't stoppped having medical issues ... » Continue Reading
[2:15pm] HELLO WORLD!!!! today has been pretty chill so far. first i woke up and surfed Instagram for a while. then i took a shower but had to sit down again because for some reason standing make me queasy and it's especially worse in the shower for some reason. the bad thing about that is when i sit then my legs are closer to me and since they're exposed i just start picking at them which is not ... » Continue Reading
[5:00pm] i dont remember how i formatted my titles on here lol. anyways, i graduated high school!!! graduation was kinda boring tbh but i got to hang out with my friends and take pictures which was cool. it was really hot with no shade but i didn't get heatstroke again which is good lol. but today something similar to heatstroke did happen- i had a doctors appointment at 6:30am this. morning as i... » Continue Reading
[3:00pm] i went to the cardiologist on Monday and they said it was not in fact a heart attack, but a pulmonary embolism. Meaning the clot didn't stop in my heart, it went into my lungs. I'm pretty sure when I wrote my entry the day I had that little attack in math I said I thought it was a pulmonary embolism, so i guess i was right lol. they are gonna do more testing on the 23rd to make sure im ok... » Continue Reading
[11:30am] ok guys so i went to a doctors appointment yesterday to try and find the cause of my fatigue and low blood pressure, and since i already did all the blood tests we decided to do an ekg and guess what? remember that time in math class where i thought i was dying and then my blood clot suddenly disappeared? turns out i was because the ekg shows the clot moved to my heart lol. im gonna see ... » Continue Reading
[11:30am] hi again! sorry i havent posted in a month, i've been busy with homework and college stuff and medical stuff (and tbh a lot of roblox lol). today i think i had a partial seizure because my leg was tweaking out. three times actually. twice in english where my leg kept like convulsing and stuff and it looked weird. another time when i was walking in the halls and it did it again and i fell... » Continue Reading
[10:15am] i got to skip the first bit of school today for another doctors appointment. my sister drove us all to school and she got out, and then my mom took over and drove me to the doctor. they wanted to give me a labial ultrasound, which im pretty sure is when they get all up in my hoohah or something, but i explained to them that i am in no pain and that's not even where my clot is, so they de... » Continue Reading
[11:45am] haii !! :D today i had english where all we did was read and it was very nice. the book we're reading reminds me of the webtoon Everything Is Okay, but without the masks and stuff. it's just a 1950s nuclear family book lol. its pretty short so that's good. in Spanish i finished all my work in the first 5 minutes again so i read some Schoolbus Graveyard and Shelter on webtoon. now that im... » Continue Reading
[8:30am] hello everyone!! sorry for the inactivity over the past week, i was in Cancun, Mexico :D it was very nice. we rented a golf cart and drove all around Isla Mujeres, we went snorkeling, we ate lots of yummy food, we went swimming, and had lots of strawberry daiquiris. we stayed at Isla Mujeres for the first couple days and then moved to the mainland and stayed at a resort for the rest of th... » Continue Reading
[8:00pm] today was so nice. i spent the first half doing nothing but drawing kim lip from loona. I'll link the drawing below if i can find it in my trash haha. it was so fun to make because it's so colorful and she's so pretty and the sunlight is so nice and I was listening to beabadoobee the whole time lol. i tried sketching it out on paper first and then coloring it digitally, and it was so fun.... » Continue Reading