2025.04.21

[11:30am] hi again! sorry i havent posted in a month, i've been busy with homework and college stuff and medical stuff (and tbh a lot of roblox lol). today i think i had a partial seizure because my leg was tweaking out. three times actually. twice in english where my leg kept like convulsing and stuff and it looked weird. another time when i was walking in the halls and it did it again and i fell over, but luckily there was a bench right next to me so i made it look nonchalant. i think it's because my blood thinners increase risk of seizures (because they lower my blood pressure and give me anemia) but also because i drank another celsius lol. celsius always makes me feel like im dying. last week i drank it and almost fainted and had to hold on the the wall as i was walking because i was so lightheaded and shaky and weak i could barely see lol. but i need it because my meds also make me fatigued all the time so i cant exist without it haha. i get sleepy again after only a couple hours too. but it tastes so good lol. anyways i was gonna go to walmart and mcdonalds with a friend today but i called it off bc i dont wanna drive her if my leg is gonna tweak out again, that would be very bad. in the class after english i was really lightheaded and hot and shaky and nauseous which i heard is signs youre about to have a real seizure so i layed my head on my desk and took deep breaths. i think it was just me about to faint again though, because a few minutes later i could lift my head up again wihtout thinking i was gonna die. im not gonna tell my mom or doctor about this though because theyre gonna tell me to stop drinking celsius. i sound like an addict but without celsius i literally cant concentrate on anything besides staying awake. when i dont have it i get super bad grades, and when i do have it i am back to having my nerd grades. i only have a couple weeks left of school anyways, so i think im gonna keep drinking it until then. and i only drink it on days i have quizzes or tests, but the thing is i usually have at least one a day since i have so many classes and they're all nerd classes. anyways i skipped lunch today because i still feel a bit queasy, and now im gonna work on my webtoon while listening to chuu's new album. the vcr for artms showed last night and it was so embarrassing because my video is so bad. at least they oohed and ahhed at my drawing. actually i think im gonna lay down first because i still feel like im about to seize or faint or something. its worth it though because i finished all my work in spanish suepr quickly and correctly and i said something the teacher agreed with in english, so im academically slaying rn