(slight vent warning) ive been feeling quite strange lately, i suppose i always feel a bit strange but i feel a specific type of strange right now. I guess i just feel like a bit off, and like everything i do doesn't have much purpose at all, i feel boring, i feel kind of pointless. I swear my mind switches on a dime and i might feel completely different tomorrow, but when i feel like something, i... » Continue Reading
You know that fandom that you think is really really cool but you just never got into it? That was Hatsune Miku for me. Like I knew Miku, I I even listened to Miku, played colorful stage but I just never really joined the fandom. But I did nowww:33333 I tend to obsess over fictional shit when life gets too much and Miku is my current thing I've latched onto:3 I've done a bunch of research about h... » Continue Reading
tw: skin picking, slight vent my brain is a maze of words of feelings. All the paths feel fake and all of the feelings feel fake. I can't get through this human life. But I have to. I do. I pick the skin around my nails and I feel that slight stinging pain. How strange is it to feel. How strange is it to be anything at all? My voice is loud and unkind, and I wish to never speak again. » Continue Reading
You cant be scared of saying the wrong thing that you dont speak at all, you can't be so scared you'll get made fun of that you dont enjoy things, you cant be so scared to mess up that you dont live. I dont know anything im just a sad teenager, but i know this. I think lately ive been so scared to be really genuinely seen for who i am, ive been scared to put myself out there, but ive realized its... » Continue Reading
I haven't been on this site for awhile, i guess its been busy. im just trying to get through school honestly, its alot, but also i feel like i need school, like i feel so purposeless without it. I guess my beige flag is that i have this view that i will achieve all my goals, i have this view that in the future it will get better. i guess school just feels like me working towards that. I like to ta... » Continue Reading
this is me just talking about guitar cuz yeah i love playing guitar and think its cool! so i got a guitar many years ago and i tried playing it but im pretty sure i just decided i wasn't good at it so it wasn't worth it. I think i did guitar lessons?? idk what happened there. anyways this(last?) summer i got like inspired to play again cuz idk i always wished i was good at it but its like if you ... » Continue Reading