Today, I'm thinking about how difficult it is for us to watch a movie depicting genocide, and hate, and ignorance, and lust, and anger, and sadness, and killing - how often we check the timestamp at the bottom of the screen, wondering if the end is near - and how easy it is to spend the next 2 hours scrolling the comments of a McDonalds casserole recipe on Instagram. I'm thinking about how easy it... » Continue Reading
Im tired of trying to make my page pretty. It is what it is. Just like my writing. Not pretty. I am NOT a poet. I cant make sentences sound pretty. Thats not what i look for in a sentence. It's a personal preference. Im just typing. Its hard not to care about pretty. Pretty stresses me out. And if i try to resist pretty - to spite it - well, then it's ugly...and no one likes ugly. But IDGAF!!! O... » Continue Reading
I was feeling sooooooo good and productive and i applied to some jobs last night and i fucking slayed working on my poster today trying to flesh out a plan but all of a sudden i hate everything again and i have no motivation again. There was a fire alarm at the museum last week from the restaurant at the bottom of the building and i guess something went wrong with the humidifier (there was a moist... » Continue Reading
Mom called me today to update me on dad's job search and all his stuff thats been stressing him out. I am CONSTANTLY thinking about him and how sad and scared he must be. But today she said he also finally realized his memory has been failing him a lot more than he thought. We knew he was having problems for a long time now but hes always been very strongheaded and I guess this week his bosses and... » Continue Reading
This is the first fourth of july ill spend away from my family... doesnt seem like it would b a big deal but... it is 2 me. Its a silly holiday that nobody cares ab but it was always a fun one w my fam. they annoy me but... still hard not to b there. and i know no one else here cares ab it and they all think its silly that i care what we do, but its special 2 me and it just makes me miss home when... » Continue Reading