anything, really, just share something you liked. post with no expiration date, no matter when you see it in the blog section or in my profile, feel free to comment » Continue Reading
they all like to "set boundaries", but how about respecting other's boundaries? they mindlessly send friend requests/messages and then it's somehow my responsibility to check their age (if they even have it in their profile), read their dni list or whatever. can't they just not send this friend request, when they see 18+ mark in my (or anyone else's) profile? i'm not taking "they're just kids, th... » Continue Reading
all arguing about what makes you part of a subculture - music, clothes, aesthetics, whatever... and literally no one's talking about philosophy and mindset. that's what's primary, everything else (common fashion and music genres) were born out of it. you're punk even if you prefer listening to schubert more, you're emo even if your hair look 'normal'. the way of thinking is what matters. » Continue Reading
still on the topic of not trusting myself. can't help but think of something that could literally have happened just a couple hours ago and doubt that i remember it right. has really nothing bad happened to me on that walk? have i talked to someone today at all? have i said what i remember i've said or was it something different? sometimes it gets worse and i spend all evening wondering what have ... » Continue Reading
disclaimers: I live in a second world country and am writing about the realities of life here, obviously what is written may not be true for first/third world countries; I am a femcel myself, so my reasoning may be biased. - who are femcels? The word itself is a feminization of the word incel, incel being an abbreviation of the two words for involunta » Continue Reading
this paranoia drives me insane, how can i tell if i'm lying to myself? and then who's lying and who's being lied to? i doubt too much and at this point i can't even be sure if i am me anymore or what is it that i call me anyway? there's too many 'me's for them to be real, the truth is one or none. losing trust in my?self? » Continue Reading
i remember reading about dies irae in the last book of the chronicles of narnia , where sinners were punished by their own conscience. ones who sinned could not even look at savior, leave alone walk with him into the new world. i feel it. i can't let go of my sins yet. each time i try to acknowledge sin, every time i wa » Continue Reading
since my last three posts have been all about resident evil, i think i should write at least something about other games, just for a change. resident evil is not the only game i love (and frankly not even my favorite) (don't come for me). if i could erase my memory to play something for the first time again that game would be pathologic, the classic hd one. first time seeing the intro, first time... » Continue Reading
i don't like people irl staring at my precious obsession, so i hide it :) :( there's not much, but i just started collecting (why there's so few resident evil thingies where i live??? not a single william birkin figure besides a tubbz duck one, me sad) sometimes i put a flashlight before wesker silhouette to make a bigger shadow of him on the wall. when i look » Continue Reading
every time i see the name "sergei vladimir" mentioned in re related media i internally die from cringe. WHAT KIND OF NAME IS SERGEI VLADIMIR?? MAN HAS TWO FIRST NAMES, NO PATRONYM, NO SURNAME, NO NOTHING, like who cares how those slavs name their people right? thanks for not naming him ivan ivan i guess » Continue Reading