I often worry that my novelty with people wears off. I wonder if I'm too intense for people or more boring than they originally thought, and if that's the reason people distance themselves from me after short periods of time. And I beat myself up about it a lot because I used to tell people "It's okay to not get along with everyone. There are billions of people on the planet, not everyone is goi... » Continue Reading
I wish I could be better. I wish that things didn't hurt this much. I wish that I could be stronger. I wish that I was the kind of person people were happy to be around. I wish that people would look at me and believe that I was worthy of their time. I wish I knew how to earn people's love. I wish that I didn't have to fight my own mind as often as I do. I wish that I could have a day where... » Continue Reading
I was 14 the day I first laid eyes on you. You were standing towards the front of the room on the right hand side, chatting with what I assumed to be the band that was going to be performing at this little church event I had been told to go to. I was there with my childhood friend because at the time, we were both becoming very active in the volunteer circuit as part of our journey in our religion... » Continue Reading
Here are all the pictures I've used/posted so far. Take a look and let me know which one is your favorite if you want!! I only ask that you don't use the word "pretty" as I am not a fan of it. » Continue Reading
When I was maybe a junior in high school, maybe 16 or 17, I had lost the band polo shirt that was part of our casual uniform in our school. It was $25 to replace, and the school itself was expensive, so I knew I had to find it or else I'd be in trouble. Plus, I needed it anyway, it was part of my uniform and the band director was going to chew me out if I wasn't wearing it. I remember being on the... » Continue Reading
It always starts with the same thought. "No one cares, and no one would notice." The rational part of me knows that is not true. There's a part of me that knows, in theory, someone out there could see the difference between my presence and the lack of it. That's when the second thought comes in. "You are only a burden to those around you." The compassionate part of me that fights to show others... » Continue Reading
The good things come to me in small flashes. The drops of water hitting the light as one of the producers threw water on the audience. The energy in the room as my favorite song was perfor » Continue Reading
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