I often worry that my novelty with people wears off.
I wonder if I'm too intense for people or more boring than they originally thought, and if that's the reason people distance themselves from me after short periods of time.
And I beat myself up about it a lot because I used to tell people "It's okay to not get along with everyone. There are billions of people on the planet, not everyone is going to like each other." And I stand by that statement, but ever since I moved I have been feeling the weight of this loneliness more and more each day. I went from having friends that would legit pick me up just to take me grocery shopping with them, to being extremely isolated. And every time I try to make a new friend, it feels like things go really well for a few days, and then everything fizzles out.
I wish I knew how to fix it. I wish I knew what I was doing wrong.
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DJ M.I.P.
Friendships come and go... but making friends then losing them sucks... take it from me. But what I am saying is that you are you, and I think you have some great friends on here to keep you company :)
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Sofrítho
The reality is you had time to foster those friendships before. People need more time to get to that level w you from scratch. You’re lovely. I’d take you grocery shopping w me. ️ Don’t beat yourself up.
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Martin C.
You're not alone, Ada.
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Lordking Byron
I hope a little kudos will brighten your evening!
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