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Category: Life
Hii!!! So, I've been like doomscrolling on spacehey for the past couple of weeks and I think I'm finally getting the hang of this. So, my name is Kiara. I am a 14-year-old female that struggles with orthorexia and anorexia. I do already have a couple blogs about this, and I will blog more about that in the future. My blog is a public diary basically. I encourage any kind of criticism and stuff lik... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Hi, sorry for having like no updates whatsoever it's just like.. idk I haven't had much to blog about. Actually, that's a lie. My physical health is getting way worse and I'm sure it's the anorexia. Like no shit what was I thinking. And then, I got diagnosed with like this really bad gluten allergy, so it just made my anorexia worse. Like I already wasn't eating a lot but now I'm eating a lot less... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Hi. This isn't another boy talk blog, because I did a LOT of thinking, I really love my boyfriend. Even if his intentions aren't the same, even if he doesn't show it, I really love him. I believe he can do better. I want to be better so we can have a better relationship. Anyway. over the weekend I went to Montana. I went to Billings, picked up my car, visited my dad in Hays, and that's it. I want... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
It's like 2:40am and I'm thinking about my bf and the guy that I think I like. Because like I can go on and on about both of them fr. Earlier today my bf decided that he's no longer gonna ghost me iggggg, and that made me remember why I fell inlove with him in the first place. But then again, I still think it's too soon to say I love him. He has curly hair, and it's kinda long. I think he should g... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Hiiii!! I'm not dead!!! It's been like.. a whole month since my last blog. Anyway, I got with that guy. Uhmm I'm not sure if I'm even into him... No, I know I'm not but rn he's the only source of male affection I got rn so I'll keep him for a bit longer. He knows I don't truly love him and even he asked for a "not serious" relationship. I fer sure think he's talking to other girls though. I don't ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I woke up around 7am and got ready for the day but I went back to bed around 9am because I skipped out on work. 2:21pm Because I slept through breakfast and lunch time, I haven't eaten anything at all. Not since lunch yesterday. So it's been a whole 26 hours since I last ate something. I'm gonna try to go further if I can. I'm so proud of myself for holding out this long I don't think I ever did.... » Continue Reading
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Summer is in 16 days, and I got some starving to do. So yeah, that's my plan for the next like 2 weeks >-> 8:08 am I had 2 pieces of toast with some peanut butter on top. I plan on skipping out at lunch and then eating as little as I possibly can when dinner time comes around. I need to stay on my water intake though so a lot of that throughout the day. At around 6 pm I'll go to the gym with my ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
Wanna-rexics are so quick to flex off the anorexia they don't have. Like everyone knows you started your DIET yesterday, of course there isn't going to be any kind of obvious change. "Imagine calling an anorexic fat" what I say to that is, "starve harder." I swear these girls just want to be anorexic for the label, they don't see that it's a disorder for a reason. Constantly stuffing their face an... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Idk what people usually blog about lol, I scroll through spacehey(and other sites that have a blog/forum function) and it just confuses me. Originally, I thought blogging was like idk js life stuff. And I get that there's a category for that too but like idk I'm still confused. What do people like? What do you guys want to see? While on the subject of blogging, what's a bulletin? I sound stupid f... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I'll be honest, today I wasn't doing to good. I got to go to work in like an hour, even though by then it would be 5 pm. I ate a pop tart and a breakfast bowl. God I hate myself, I let myself do this shit and then I don't hold myself accountable. Like I acknowledge it but that's not holding myself accountable lol??? You guys must think I'm some try hard ana-wannabe. I hate myself for eating. Anyth... » Continue Reading
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