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Category: Life
there are claw marks on the inside of my skull. i’ve been scratching for four years, and no one has ever heard. tap, tap, tap. maybe i’ve been scratching forever. maybe i will always be scratching, always clawing my way out of something i simply cannot escape. i cannot escape who i am. i don’t know who that is. i’ve been thinking a lot recently. i haven’t wanted to but it seems i just can’t stop. ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
red strings tie me to you. my heart is a patchwork of your affection. i wore our necklace like a noose, like a collar. i wish you’d seep into my bloodstream and power my body the way you power my soul. i didn’t know myself until i knew you. i didn’t know anything the way i thought i did. every thought i have revolves around you. i love you. i love you. it’s always you. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
time is a terrifying thing. always moving, constantly going forward, something you can’t affect or take back. the seconds i’ve spent writing this are ones that i’ll never relive. every moment of my life has already passed, but new ones are still passing. i’m running out of time, yet time will never stop coming. i’ve been stagnant for five years. the future a scary thing to think about when you do... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
sometimes you remember things you want to. sometimes you rememeber things you don't. and sometimes, you don't remember much of anything. i realize sometimes, that i don't remember much from my life. not unless there's a picture, or it's being told back to me. things slip my memory, and moments i think i'll cherish are simply fleeting. there are times i'd like to remember but don't, memories that g... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i’ll drive us both into a head on collision on the freeway or outside your parents house in the wreckage i’ll leave behind a note for your loved ones or for your newest wife in the margin i confessed my darkest secrets but i left the answer sheet blank » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i hugged you one-handed today you squeezed me extra hard i am no stranger to suffocation god knows neither are you i only write when things are bad i only read when things are tough my windowsill holds tears from a younger self but she is no longer alone i wished on a star that you’d be mine but you always liked t » Continue Reading
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i wonder what turned you off. my brittle bones under your hands, or my gangly fingers in your hair? was i not what you were looking for, could you not see her in my eyes? i hope you couldn’t, i tried so hard to be all that she wasn’t. maybe that was my first mistake. i wonder what you saw that fateful night, how my flushed state in the dim lights of a house party caught your attention. the firewor... » Continue Reading
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i think i'm depressed again. it's weird how realizations hit you. in your bed, on a waterslide, in the car next to your dad. i think this laugh is fake, i think i'm 14 again, dreading a world that only wants me well. i hope she isn't watching this. i think you could cure me. why aren't you curing me? why do you not want me around? i only care for this when i'm sober. longing for the bottle by day,... » Continue Reading
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i can almost feel the sun on my face from the confines of my bedroom. there hasn’t been a lot of sun this summer but i’m sure you felt it when it was there. i would’ve been quiet if you wanted. as a mouse, the shadow behind your back that only shows when the sun is up. i’m still there when it’s down, you just can’t see me. either way you wouldn’t care. the only reason you’re here is to feel the su... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
your clothes are on my floor and your earrings on my nightstand and your toothbrush next to mine and your shirt smells like my laundry detergent which you said smells so nice. i’ll use your dryer, i’ll make breakfast, i’m going to work but i’ll leave the keys so you can sleep in. i wish you stayed. i wish i was awake. i wish we weren’t drunk and i wish you weren’t crying on my floor. thanks for be... » Continue Reading
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a toast to what we never could've been » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
finally made a spacehey >_ < it was sooOoO annoying tho.. idk anything abt code so this was tuff!!1 theres some faulty stuff in my abt me but its 3:30 am and im too tired to care rn XD idk how much im gonna use this or rly How u use it but ig we will find out... GOOD NITE!! » Continue Reading
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