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I made all of my old entries public, they were all diary entries before, but idk, i just sorta dont care much. A lot has happened. Was hospitalised last summer. Graduated. Got broken up with. Got a borderline-illegal job. Had a thing going on with a former copatient (aka we would get drunk and make out). Tried to get in an art uni and failed. Started drinking a lot. It goes dormant for a couple we... » Continue Reading
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heyyyy just here to let whoever is reading this know that i am still alive. sorta stuck between mood swings. got to a point where i was told to get admitted after two weeks of lowkey planning my own demise but then i got better n was told to just pick up running and to take cold showers by the ward staff:// » Continue Reading
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so, i turned in my graduation project last week! honestly pretty proud of it, maybe i’m gonna write a blog post about it sometime soon. i’ve been visiting dan at the ward for a month now. we honestly got a lot closer and gayer bahaha. our favourite way to spend the visiting hours together is to just lay in the grass and talk about dumb stuff (and when the wind picks up we use “staying warm” as an ... » Continue Reading
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its been a while again. thought id write some sorta update. the last time i posted here, i was talking about how i was struggling to get by and not kms. my boyfriend attempted last monday. have been visiting him at the ward. hes doing better, finally got put on meds and stuff, but hes gonna miss our prom tomorrow. he really wanted to go,, back before we got together, he put "your deep rest" in a s... » Continue Reading
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Dear diary or whatever the fuck. Yknow how happy n jolly I was yesterday?? Well I thought it was a good day to relax and smoke some weed. Had the worst trip of my life my dude. I guess I finally figured out how to pull properly cause damn, it kicked hard and BAD. My heartbeat went to fuckin 190 and it took me two hours to get it to 90. I wouldve enjoyed the trip without that tho. It was pretty coo... » Continue Reading
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Well, thought I'd write here again, since I kinda miss writing out how my and Dan's thing is going. These two months were,,, weird. I dont know I honestly find it hard to remember because the last two weeks were really really really bad (for me personally, school and all that stress) and my brain kind of pushed it out. Well me and Dan started smoking weed once in a while. I'm personally still expe... » Continue Reading
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man he already misses me!!! and he hasnt even left for florence yet bahaha. infested his brain with gay thoughts » Continue Reading
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heyyyy pookies!! soooo me n silly guy hung out today after school:], we wanted to go to a gallery but we had to wait for the dog sitter to go pick up their familys dog cause yeee sooo we just hung out at his place:], talked for a bit (two hours), then we watched The House aaaand then we talked more » Continue Reading
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heyyyyyy sorry ive been busy rotting away haha sooooo i gave him the note on wednesday and yee!!! he read it when he got home, we messaged for a bit and!!! HE LIKES ME!!!!!!! uaaaa!!!! and yea ye called for a bit, i showed him the joke presentation i made (13 reasons why its a good idea to date) aaand yee he said that that solidified it:]!! the thing is that hes got the avoidant attachment goin on... » Continue Reading
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life updateeee got a week off school to work on our graduation projects n such. it was silly mans birthday on tuesday so we went to a tea house (our silly group of 3)!! our friend also got us all a shisha so that was nice:]. ive always been really against smoking » Continue Reading
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sorry i havent been online much lately, school is sucking my will to live out of me (it is bad) buuuuuut!! me and the silly guy went on a hike yesterday!! it was these two hills next to a river. the location was so fuckin pretty!!! it was rough sometimes but it wa » Continue Reading
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hey guys, another life update! silly guy had a spare ticket for the blink 182 show and took me with him:], man it was so good!! i just wish i knew the songs better:[ it was so nice watching silly enjoy the sho » Continue Reading
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