God it feels like 5 fucking years have passed since I last wrote on here. January was long and lowkey mentally mind fucking lmaoo. Me and my ex talked and honestly I regret not cutting them off sometimes, it's just really hard. They've been around me everyday for almost 2 years and I am just supposed to cut them off. IDKKK, but I have just recently gained enough self-respect to at least keep them ... » Continue Reading
Okay so I feel I have moved past the cheating situation with my former girlfriend which thank god because I was a messss like fuck, but omg I am yearning for lesbian love like a bitch. I love women so much and the fact that I am going to marry the love of my life one day makes me insanely happy. I had a dream last night about meeting a woman who was like a little bit (a lot) older than me LOL but ... » Continue Reading
Dude ok so personally I've never greened out but last night I thought it was over for me. I took 2 benadryl and smoked a little bit I thought I was gonna lose my shit actually. Shit was moving it was so fun. I watched Nerve to. Literally the best movie ever it shaped all of my interests. I think Nerve and Steven universe are the best shows to watch high lmao. Anyways just a little high rant!!! sha... » Continue Reading
I've been trying to stay off tiktok and like instagram reels cuz of my break up and shit and due to the fact it's actually rotting my brain and I don't wanna evolve incorrectly lmao. BUTTT tiktok has been spitting some hot anti-capitalist shit and instagram has been showing me so many friendly ecological alternatives to my everyday life shit. I have so many videos saved and I'm really trying to li... » Continue Reading
I'm trying to get more into the Goth scene and I feel so like yuck. I feel like the whole aspect of being Goth has been misinterpreted by my generation on social media. It's so frustrating I love the sound and the look of Goth but if I'm not living up to another 17 yr old's expectation then I'm not goth all of a sudden. It's strange. That's just my experience tho :3! » Continue Reading