Yearning.

Okay so I feel I have moved past the cheating situation with my former girlfriend which thank god because I was a messss like fuck, but omg I am yearning for lesbian love like a bitch. I love women so much and the fact that I am going to marry the love of my life one day makes me insanely happy. I had a dream last night about meeting a woman who was like a little bit (a lot) older than me LOL but she was perfect she cared for me and loved me so gently and took time to get to know me and understand me. I feel I have always craved for this woman since I was young. It's not the mommy issues promise lol but she's been on my mind all day. I journaled about her and almost started crying. I need her but I feel we still need to spend time apart and grow then we will be able to love each other!!! Essentially I feel like this older blue eyed woman is my soulmate who I have yet to meet and it is KILLING me.