I started a new anti-depressant, Vraylar. I've been on it for a week so far and I'm noticed some improvements in my motivation and mood, but I'm still easily thrown off by a minor inconveniences and not prioritizing things that I need to do. I managed to create seven IMVU products yesterday due to my growing motivation. » Continue Reading
This is my fourth "journal" entry and it's beginning to feel obligatory. My brain craves shorter tasks that require less effort with an immediate reward, which cannot be successfully applied to reality. In the real world, we must do complicated tasks with little to no reward. I would compare this to being employed with a non-livable wage. That is unfortunately the circumstances in the majority of ... » Continue Reading
Today was okay, but I ended up pretty aggravated. I woke up a little earlier than usual to get more tests done today. No blood test this time, just and MRI and a mammogram. The mammogram ended up being changed to an ultrasound because of my age, which I'm grateful for. I wasn't look forward to have my breasts smashed between two plates. After that my fiance and I dropped off my job application and... » Continue Reading
Today was decent. I woke up this afternoon, got dressed and my friend came over to chat for a bit before my fiance and I left to run errands. We stopped at the dump first to get rid of some junk we had then went to the mall for Auntie Anne's and for a stash jar at Spencer's. Then we got an earring I had stuck in my ear for a few years removed at my favorite tattoo shop. I'm probably going to loung... » Continue Reading
Today started off wild. I had to wake up early this morning to get my blood drawn and it was absolute chaos. I have vasovagal/neurocardiogenic syncope so I have to be laying down with my legs elevated when I get blood tests. I don't necessarily have trouble with needles or the sight of blood, I have piercings, tattoos, have had my fair share of injuries, and have no problem with injections. Howeve... » Continue Reading
I've only been here nine days and have had to block two people because they don't understand the meaning of "stop sending me friend requests." » Continue Reading
So I went to get lab work done today and the lady drawing my blood absolutely fucking butchered it and had the mother fucking nerve to insist on letting her try again. He stabbed my arm, didn't even get it in my vein, blood shot everywhere but in the vial and she was aggressively moving the needle around under my skin. So of course I refused to let her try again. It was so bad even my fiance, who'... » Continue Reading
I was supposed to have my EEG this morning, but I didn't realize that I was supposed to go to bed at midnight and wake up at five, because for some reason they want to sleep deprived for the test. Well I slept from one to eight something. This is inhumane and I'm sick of taking fucking tests that produce no results. Like, I'm glad they're not finding anything else wrong with me, but I'm pissed I'm... » Continue Reading
I finally finished Cursed after three library renewals and battling my executive dysfunction. I gotta say, I'm impressed, but also impatient in waiting for the next novel (if it's ever released). Reading about Nimue's rise from just another Fey girl, to The Wolf Blood Witch, to queen was fantastic. I have to admit, at times I thought she was really going to lose, and technically she did, but she p... » Continue Reading
Despite having this on my profile, some people seem not to understand. So here it is again. If we haven't spoke, don't send me a friend request. » Continue Reading