"for so long I've been nothing but a scope behind a rifle..."
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Category: Games
again im rambling about funger because i think about literally nothing else and i dont want to bother my friends, plus nobody reads these anyway so i have it all to myself. i love levi SO much it hurts me. i dont know why, i just think hes amazing. every time i see him i just want to cry and squeeze him and treat him gently and feed him and shake him. i was playing termina and i was planning on do... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
not a usual blog again, but i have nowhere else to talk about. why do people hate henryk so much? i think he is very neat, and admittedly he reminds me of my boyfriend. hes a 32 year old former artist and talented chef from rondon, has nothing about his lore or background which makes him mysterious, yet opens up a little about how he wanted to become a chef. worked at his parents' tavern by helpin... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
am i even real? is any of this real? am i alive? im not sure if i want to know. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
it gets more and more difficult everyday to think of reasons to keep living. i dont even know what my current reason is. i guess i just cannot bring myself to do such a selfish thing. theres nothing wrong with my life. i have friends, i have a boyfriend, i have parents, what else do i ask for? it just feels like im living a lie everyday. my mom said shes gonna quit drinking and only drink on holid... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
im fucking going insane. i feel eyes piercing into my back yet when i turn towards the darkness nothing is there. why the fuck do i even have the bells on my door if they do not chime away evil? is it me, am i the evil? i dont fucking care anymore. boyfriend texts me saying he wrote something, i ask to see, its a long ass poem. talking about how he feels like a bad boyfriend, feels bad for pushing... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i finally did it. after almost 3 years, i finally belong to the one i love. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
got wisdom tooth extracted yesterday, stayed fully conscious. they didnt let my dad stay in the room due to policy, whatever. they pulled that shit out of my mouth in like literally 1 minute and i couldnt feel anything, not even the pressure. it felt good. the woman holding my jaw still had nice hands, it made me want my mom with the way she touched me. got some Vicodin, only 3 pills that theyre m... » Continue Reading
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Prayer to Apollon - in wishes of good health Phoebus Apollo, bearer of health, for You we compose our song, and favorably promote Your discoveries. With Your healing arts, You lead life back when it is withdrawn from us and recall us from joining the Manes in Heaven. You who formerly dwelt in the temples of Aegea, Pergamum, and Epidaurum, and who drove off the Python from Your peaceful house at De... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ive been confused for a little bit. me and the guy i like were taking like these tests online that are like "psychopathic test", "love style test", "borderline test" and stuff and it was fun to do with him, but then we did a homophobic test as a joke. i got like 6% affective homophobia, 15% cognitive homophobia, 0% behavioral homophobia, and 7% total homophobia. i sent the results since we both kn... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
guy i like likes me back. yet we cannot be together since he has trust issues from his stupid ass ex and he wants to try dating this other girl since him and i are long distance. though he wrote this whole thing for me that was intended to be an apology, though slowly turned into a love confession. my heart tears apart as i read it every day because it means so much to me that he even has any sort... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
it constantly feels like someone is watching me again. its like that feeling never goes away, why? ive got black out curtains, ive covered every mirror, i keep the lights on, i even got this weird witch craft thing to put on my door to keep bad spirits away. i am afraid. i dont know why, i just feel like i am being watched everywhere i go. i cover my device cameras with clothes, i dont leave the h... » Continue Reading
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