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Entry #98
Category: Life
i feel trapped, as if theres no escape from anything no matter how much i fight it. im so doomed when i have to actually start living in the real world. » Continue Reading
Steel
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Entry #97
Category: Life
Heard Charlie Kirk died today, very sad for his kids having to go through that. I don't think anyone deserves to die, especially someone who had an important role in someone's life, let alone multiple even if I didn't agree with his beliefs, but i dont mourn him. Another one of my nerves died in my tooth today I think, damn. Was in agonizing pain like all day yesterday, though today isnt too bad. ... » Continue Reading
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Entry #96
Category: Life
why cant anyone just listen to me? i want a clean house, soooo effing bad. but no one even tries. no matter how much i fucking beg. cant ask my dad because hes literally always at work, and the only time he can relax is at home so im not gonna ask him to clean, especially since hes been having a lot of problems physically. cant ask my brother because i dont really have a bond with him and he liter... » Continue Reading
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Entry #95
Category: Life
it feels like nothing is going right. im so angry all the time again, and its getting tiring. i wish i was just normal. havent been playing overwatch often recently and im kind of sad since i really want to but just dont have to motivation to play, especially alone. been getting overwhelmed with my religious practice as well. i feel like ive forced myself to try and worship more deities than i nee... » Continue Reading
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Entry #94
Category: Life
all these bitches talm bout they dont like me get in line lmaooo dont like me then stay off my shit bitch.. hold ur tongue unless u gon lick on my dic k LOLLL neway im high ash rah nah and bored mmm been having a good day today lowk i reorganzied and cleaned my altars yayyy i finally made a hestia altar cuz my lovely lady deserves everything for giving me the ability to pray at all, also finally m... » Continue Reading
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Entry #93
Category: Life
going to the fair today. with my luck ill probably go on a ride and then the seat harness wont work properly and ill get flung out and die. though i am not necessarily against the idea. but if not, then i suppose that would be considered a good day. i dont even know what good days are anymore. everyday is the same. » Continue Reading
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Entry #92
Category: Life
lately ive been feeling overall numb to a lot of things. i feel like i dont have anything left that could hurt me if i lost it. i mean i know i do but i just guess im going through some sort of strange phase. i feel like i dont care about anything anymore, myself or others. i am once again alive but not living. i cant even feel angry anymore, but now i wish i did after begging to feel anything but... » Continue Reading
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Entry #91
Category: Life
sometimes i practice writing my suicide note so that i can figure out all of my feelings easier and the things i want to say » Continue Reading
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Entry #90
Category: Life
no matter what i cant get them off my mind. every game, song, every artist, every character, every color, every type of clothing, type of animals, everything i do or say or think just reminds me of them, over, and over, and over again. ive finally lost it, im at my breaking point where im just desperate, even if it hurts me even more or those around me. im going to take accountability and apologiz... » Continue Reading
Entry #89
Category: Life
spoke too soon i already wanna fucking kill myself but i will be okay chat » Continue Reading
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Entry #87
Category: Life
brother's mad tonight. time to hide in my room. not like anything is different anyway. » Continue Reading