"i've worked too hard to feel so empty (10 am and still just stuck"
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Category: Writing and Poetry
people say that if there was an angry man in your house, there will always be an angry man in your house for a long time, i was worried that was me. that i was the angry man. that i took after my father, only worse--i don't need the veil of alcohol to begin and end screaming matches, or to degrade and curse and humiliate the people that thought they loved me. this is true, to an extent. i tend to ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
it's been a while since i've been this bed bound. i still go to class and the board game club and open lab hours, but it's like i stop existing if i'm not around people. the majority of my time is spent sleeping, watching mindless youtube videos, talking to sketchy men on tumblr, and playing video games my heart's not in. i barely even eat, anymore--partially due to the fact that i can't bring my... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
it feels weird just copy and pasting my class writing into my blog. plus, some of it sucks ass. here's my favorite excerpts from "stigmata" : "Do you think he will mind?" It’s as if she is confessing a secret—she cups her hands around her lips to hide them from prying eyes that don’t exist. "If I explore, do you think he’ll punish me?" » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
the third hour of waiting brings the respite of wavering blues and purples, scrubbing the dingy stage in salacious, indulgent color. the thick black curtains sway with concealed movement on their tension rods, careening shadows beneath them. this is not a popular band. the crowd does not go wild when the lead vocalist comes to adjust the bass amp, to click in cables to a microphone. they chatter ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
this post discusses 18+ topics. i'm not your parent, but don't get pissy if you ignore this warning i would be pro fiction in a vacuum. given no outside input, i would come to the most rational conclusion that the world of media and the world of reality are two distinct realms, and that as long as i have a basic understanding of that fact, it does not matter what fiction i consume. outside a vacuu... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
a couple weeks ago, the bottom right corner of my laptop screen started peeling away from the frame, pulling various metal bits along with it. surprisingly, nothing has broken by now; i owe it all to several feet of blue painter's tape wrapped lovingly around the edge and partway onto my screen. i can't see the date or time anymore, but it's done wonders for my productivity (and destroyed it, too-... » Continue Reading
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Category: Music
father, please forgive me for i did not realize what i did or that i'd live to regret it i've been on a bit of a bo burnham kick recently; and by "bo burnham kick," i mean i've listened to the entirety of his discography for the past three nights in a row. i've been listening to his music for well over eight years--a fact only verified by the roblox "booga booga" wiki page (i remember learning the... » Continue Reading
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