havin' a rough time (+ next semester classes)

it's been a while since i've been this bed bound. i still go to class and the board game club and open lab hours, but it's like i stop existing if i'm not around people. the majority of my time is spent sleeping, watching mindless youtube videos, talking to sketchy men on tumblr, and playing video games my heart's not in. 

i barely even eat, anymore--partially due to the fact that i can't bring myself to get more groceries and my fridge is empty. it's been a long, long time since i've felt this lonely. my mom won't even text me back. 

i don't want this to be entirely negative, i've cried enough and it's not even noon :/ i registered for next semester classes today, and i'm excited about a few! i'm taking a religion and genders: honors class, plus programming 101. the other four are boring english major classes. honestly, the fact that so few of the classes for my major interest me is really telling. i want to transfer so bad lol

also, found out i have the target skinny mirror, which really fucked me up. kind of figured i was over it, but i guess stuff like that doesn't go away as easily as you think it should.