My mom is finally letting me go to the mall with my S/O! I'm just scared that my dad is gonna go and be there like "oh, ill follow them around the mall just in case". Like this is a date and we wanna be alone. Bcs I know if he does follow us, he's gonna be glued to me. » Continue Reading
So.... My S/O got out of me that I like stuff that you wear in bed (like lingerie) and he got out of me one of the things that my mom bought me when I told her I was dating him. And I'm going over to his house soon and he wants me to wear it. In my mind he just told me whenever I go over to his house he wants to fuck me. I told my friends and all they said was " use protection" honestly kinda gla... » Continue Reading
So my contact name for my S/O is Mommy❤ and my mom saw it today for the first time. SHE.ASKED.ME.IF.I.WAS.DADDY. WHILE MY BROTHER AND DAD WERE IN THE CAR. My reaction was the: open car door and walk home. I did do that btw. » Continue Reading
I told the person who wanted to date me and my S/O no bcs I can't deal with it and that I'm not poly. THEY WERE ONLY GONNA DATE ME FOR MY S/O. I emailed them last night and they asked if they could date my S/O and I could date him but the two of us did not date. Isn't that technically cheating?? i wanna be with my S/O and I don't want this other person to date him. I don't want to lose him but I w... » Continue Reading
I have insomnia. It's been something that here recently has been hurting my mental health (but not my grades). I've had it for about 5 years but it's as bad as it's ever been. I've only gotten 1 hour of sleep in like 4 days which is shitty and I don't have anything to do at night. The only reason I have my computer is bcs of issues going on with my S/O (look at previous blogs if u wanna know more)... » Continue Reading
I try to get myself a cup of ice bcs ice and what does my ass do? Fall down the stairs!! Not once but TWICE!! I slipped, fell on my thigh and slid for like 3 stairs, got up, then fell again but on my ass this time then slid down the rest (we got like 17 stairs) » Continue Reading
I think this has to be one of my top 10 songs I will listen to on repeat: Load up on guns, bring your friends It's fun to lose and pretend She's overboard and self assured Oh no, I know a dirty word Hello, Hello, Hello How low Hello, Hello, Hel » Continue Reading
So i just prevented my S/O from killing himself. I've just now noticed how bad my mental health has gotten. I'm a people pleaser and I try my hardest to help anyone even if their a stranger on the internet. I haven't been eating properly and even sometimes I've starved myself BCS of my self-consciousness over my weight. I wanna get better but my parents won't get me therapy. I've considered gettin... » Continue Reading
My S/O just told me that he's thinking about offing himself THIS Sunday. He won't tell me how I can help and my mom won't let me go over to his house. I'm legitimately thinking of taking my old phone with no parental controls and biking my ass to his house. My house has security cameras and my mom has insomnia so she would see but I would text her like " hey my S/O is about to k!ll himself I gotta... » Continue Reading
I can't with this anymore. I'm not polyamory and my S/O wants to try one out. I had a fucking mental breakdown in Kroger about 15 minutes ago bcs of it. I dont want him to be mad but I can't and I dont know how to tell him. I love him and don't wanna lose him » Continue Reading