I often look to the stars of the great beyond as they pass by the car window, the nagging thoughts of other worlds will keep me awake as I lay in bed to rest. I want to ponder everything, I want to endlessly consume the world through my thoughts and eyes until I understand it all in it's Cold, harsh entirety. my wish is to rip apart the essence of being itself, a task that my corporeal hands unfor... » Continue Reading
retreat into yourself and find comfort in the thought that you are small, unimportant, and above all a fool . no one has expectations of a fool , no one has need for a fool , No one thinks a fool capable of anything above superficial thought... but that's what you wanted, right? to be unknowable? If no one expects then no one can be let down, If no one needs then they cannot be upset when you can... » Continue Reading
Sometimes, I think I miss my old little world. Like The smell Of petrichor soaking into the dead leaves, or the sound of all the little fairies talking to each other in their loud, high pitched Chirps. The feeling of the wind on my face as I soared through the lush green. Then I remember it was all just a dream, something conjured by nostalgia and childhood long lost. The sweet Aroma of rain has m... » Continue Reading
Now I'm on Adderall which is so amazing because my brain is quiet but I don't feel like a zombie like I did with Concerta, and I got Birth control which means my periods aren't gonna make me wanna die anymore!!! I've already had enough of the "you better not go crazy just cause you're on birth control" jokes from my family though and it hasn't even been a full day » Continue Reading
-Remove romantic pining from your brain? Like I don't need it, I don't actually want it, and it's not something I can actually get! so why is it there!? » Continue Reading
forget you're chronically ill? Not the symptoms obviously but like, you forget that there are people who just wake up without shit going on in their bodies? Like what do you mean your bones can't tell you the weather forecast? They don't click or make door creaking sounds either? Now that's just weird! You just forget it's not normal because it's so ingrained in your everyday life » Continue Reading