Who Am I, Anyway? Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m living in a dream—no, more like a nightmare. Everything around me feels so distant, like I’m watching my life unfold through a foggy window. It’s this strange thing called derealization, and it’s making me question everything about my existence. Who am I even??.. Some days, I look in the mirror and barely recognize the person staring back at m... » Continue Reading
I’ve been thinking a lot about dreams lately—specifically, the kind that haunt me at night. You know, the ones where I’m dating guys who are older, wiser, and seem to have it all figured out. It’s like I’m searching for something that’s always just out of reach, and I can’t help but wonder if it all boils down to my daddy issues. Growing up, my dad was never really there for me. It’s like I was in... » Continue Reading
ohh myyy gawwwwwwwww T_T i recently had a run in with some losers online, and they were all crying about like "umm trigger warning plzz" over an anime character with a tiny nosebleed. this type of person would never survive in the real world, and this is coming from a school-reluctant hikikomori. (hiki that gets forced 2 go to school by gov) its honestly crazy. i get tw over gore, but a nosebleed... » Continue Reading
Hey everyone! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ I’m back and feeling more motivated than ever! After taking some time for myself, I’ve realized how much I missed writing and connecting with you all. I’m going to make it a goal to put out at least one blog post every day from now on! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و I can’t wait to » Continue Reading
Awww, you're not going to believe this! >_ < So, there's this guy that I've known since we were little kids, and we'll call him Tsunami :P When we were younger, I actually had a tiny crush on him, but he had some anger management issues, so I ended up being attracted to his friend instead. And get this, that friend totally friendzoned me when I was like 9! Can you believe it? :0 Anyway, fast forwa... » Continue Reading
i cant take it anymore. this world is suffocating me. im tired of the constant stress my family puts on me, the hell i go through at school. this world is tainted and is beyond fixing. i have come to the conclusion that we are all doomed, for humans are inheretly evil. we have to escape, we have to, there is no other choice. » Continue Reading
Eeep, you guys, I'm just so excited to share all the places I wanna visit! ヽ(♡‿♡)ノ First up, South Korea! 🇰🇷 I'm a huge K-pop fan, especially of groups like TWICE and NewJeans. But don't worry, I'm not one of those crazy "stans" who will doxx anyone who doesn't like my faves. (ಥ_ಥ) I just really enjoy the music and the whole K-pop scene in general. Plus, the food in Korea looks absolutely amazing,... » Continue Reading
I'm literally so annoyed right now, I don't even know what to do! ಥ_ಥ As some of you may know from my previous post (which is pinned on my blog), I've been dealing with this super annoying impersonator who keeps harassing me online. :( Well, they just made a new account called "siuwulk" and they won't stop spamming my blog with UwU and other annoying stuff. X_X I thought they would stop after I c... » Continue Reading
I'm just so sick and tired of these stupid screen time limits my parents have put on my devices. It's like, 5pm to 10pm on weekdays, and then 11pm on weekends. Can you believe that? I'm 15, turning 16, and I STILL have screen time limits. It's not like it's actually helping me be less "addicted" or anything. All it does is make me waste my whole day just waiting for that precious screen time to... » Continue Reading
I'm so frustrated right now, I can barely even put it into words. This stupid, crappy laptop - the hinge is literally broken because my mother messed it up. And now my little brother keeps trying to break the screen too. It's so expensive, and they don't seem to care that this is the only decent device I have. Meanwhile, my siblings all have these nice, new devices that work perfectly fine. But ... » Continue Reading
"why do you have 'chan' in your name?" Look, I get it, using a Japanese honorific like that when you're not Japanese can seem a bit...odd, to say the least. And I know some of you have even accused me of being an "East Asian fetishizer" because of it.. (ᵕ—ᴗ—) But the truth is, I'm Asian myself - just not Japanese specifically. And the "chan" part of my name isn't some sort of mockery or disrespe... » Continue Reading