"Who are you when you're not performing for the people in your mind?" Well, to be frank, I am no one. I thrive on performing ; it keeps me going. The expectancy they have upon me makes me more driven, and I realized that my tendency of pleasing others doesn't only limit to those that exist. » Continue Reading
Something i think about often is how all the greatest minds in history were all a little disturbed. Can you think of an artist who never went mad? A leader who wasn't corrupted? Perhaps a poet who didn't drown in his own words? Is all the knowledge of this world so heavy, that the more you gain, the faster you spiral into insanity? » Continue Reading
Millions of thoughts running through my head, do any of them mean anything? I collect scars because i want to proof that i am paying for whatever sins i have comitted. » Continue Reading
when i have a crush on someone i dont kick my feet or twirl my hair, instead i am in my kitchen at 3am pacing in circles with my hands clasped behind my back like some middle-aged divorced detective haunted by a cold case she just cannot crack. i let it consume me whole. that's why i stick to fictional characters! » Continue Reading
A Pyrrhic victory is a victory that inflicts such a devastating toll on the victor that it is tantamount to defeat. Such a victory negates any true sense of achievement or damages long-term progress. The phrase originates from a quote from Pyrrhus of Epirus, whose triumph against the Romans in the Battle of Asculum in 279 BC destroyed much of his forces, forcing the end of his campaign. » Continue Reading
A sin-eater is a person who consumes a ritual meal in order to spiritually, take on the sins of a deceased person. The food was believed to asborb the sins of a recently dead person, thus absolving the soul of the person. Sin-eaters as a consequence, carried the sins of all the people whose sins they had eaten; they were usually feared and shunned. » Continue Reading
In a world that loves self-confidence, I find myself stuck in a weird spot. I’m a narcissist, but I also really hate myself. It’s strange to feel both proud and ashamed at the same time. (。•́︿•̀。) I often wonder how I got here. Was it the endless praise by teachers when I was younger, or the harsh criticism that came later? Both sides shaped me into someone who craves attention but also feels unco... » Continue Reading
i hate my face and my body and my voice and my personality and my life. I hate it i hate my face so much oh my semicolon i want to barf sometimes when i look at myself why do i look like that why cant i be beautiful and skinny and cute why do i have to look so deformed and ugly i hate it so much it pains me i want to break my mirror with a hammer and then break myself ugly people like me dont des... » Continue Reading