im in the mood to talk about myself so i looked up stuff and here are the 36 questions that lead to love and im gonna skip the ones that require your partner to be present. 1. Given the choice of anyone » Continue Reading
theres been a lot of looking at the past and imagining things that would have created a much different present based on objectively tiny changes that just would have done things inside my own head. specifically media consumption in the more formative years of my life. im well aware this doesnt make a lot of sense but bear with me and i think i should be able to make something coherent eventually. ... » Continue Reading
im back in toronto for a couple days before i go back to ottawa for the rest of the month and then ill come back for reals. i didn’t really consider what the dynamic of moving back into my moms would be since so much has happened since i moved out. i guess the good part is no matter how it turns out its only temporary. finding my own place shouldnt take too long i think. working is probably gonna ... » Continue Reading
streaming services make music really easy and accessible and i use them but i think the fact that they have such a chokehold on the music industry kinda sucks because there was some absolute buffoonery the bands i grew up with would do using the cds and cd cases as a physical art medium. concept albums still exist even in the form of online streaming mostly. a super simple example would be three d... » Continue Reading
i am making music i enjoy it a lot very excited to move back to toronto and get myself playing shows or whatever ok for reals ive been in the toronto music scene for years at this point and as far as my own live music playing goes ive played one show with my brothers band. i feel very overdue to play my own show. i am excited that this time around it seems like my band shenanigans are actually go... » Continue Reading
about a month ago my brain got fucked by a week straight of not having any alone time and sensory overload is a big thing in my brain. since that week i have had almost no down time either and my mental health has had massive spikes of angry and then tired and then small bits of vibing especially when hanging out with others. my hatred for corporations got boosted even more than i thought it could... » Continue Reading
im on a farm and i was quite drunk last night and i have been lead to believe i will be getting even more drunk tonight, also on the farm. i am meeting lots of cool people and hanging out with people i already know as well. i am hungover but nobody else is awake yet so its not that bad. idk if that makes sense but it does to me. i have a funky underlying fear of ticks but the plan is to get too pr... » Continue Reading
fade - great grandpa https://open.spotify.com/track/6FnE7TF6EGFnoE7nnhWLVb?si=NsGagyueShKH8Wd50JUZbg idk how to use hyphens idk if its word-word or if theres gotta be space somewhere and so i do what i want and other people tend to assume i made a typo im sure anyway music time. this song/band sounds like a cross » Continue Reading
that song exists as such a bundle of highly compressed emotions to me. putting aside my personal connections the song itself is really powerful to me and i have a tendency to feel things/ kinda vicariously experience things i have never actually felt irl. something about it males me imagine what its like to grow up in that town instead of this town or maybe in that city or even the country (not me... » Continue Reading
shirly is visiting and she brought her tattoo stuff including a gun and she was unable to give me a tat tonight but i still wanted one so for the last almost 4 hours ive been giving myself random tats (with music breaks and time to figure out and draw the next tat) and the moment i put the first bit of ink in me i swear to god my eyes dialated and i was already addicted to the power to make perman... » Continue Reading