Past couple of days, several things happened, and it thankfully led to absolutely nothing. TL;DR: after what people would call love-bombing, I saw her asking for pics of other guys online, and I don’t feel so ‘fatal’ about it. It was really weird, ever since we met she was calling me love and things, and I kind of just went with it, she said she wanted to get to know me better, meet because we do... » Continue Reading
TL;DR I met a girl, and it’s the worst thing that could possibly happen to me. Over the past few days, I decided to join a Discord server for making friends and such, I met a lot of interesting people there, including this girl (whom I’m gonna call Luana for now). Luana and I have been talking for a couple days now, we’re becoming quite close friends, we live pretty close to each other, she says... » Continue Reading
I’m crossposting this on SpaceHey and on my personal blog. I had a quite okay day, I stayed in the sunlight for a while, baked a cake and it wad pretty good. I think that’s about it. Sometimes it’s good to have a quiet day. I’d rather have every single day like this than have a mix of feelings every day. » Continue Reading
I've been a blogger here for a couple months now, and I always wanted to have my own blog-spot to share my thoughts and have a bigger picture of who I am; so I decided to go along with the idea and make my own blogspot, the link to it is right > here < (click on it and you'll be redirected to it). I might post a thing or two here tho, maybe keep on talking the people who still comment on my stuff... » Continue Reading
The writer seems to have gotten better now. I’ve been blogging for longer than a month now, talking about hobbies and how I viewed the world around me and how it affected me; especially in the negative ways. But now, things seem to be resolving, I stopped thinking negatively, I’m not sure how but it really seems like things will work out for me again. This is a strange occurrence, I’m truly scared... » Continue Reading
I encounter myself very near the edge, one more bad break and I’ll be done for. I wanna write again, and I’ll get back to it; I’ll be writing music as inspiration and motivation seem to be coming back after so long, I wanna pick up the guitar or notepad and put all my thoughts out again, I wanna feel alive again. I have come too far, I ran too much in this life and looking back I had an amazing ru... » Continue Reading
My life seems to be empty, every little ambition that I’ve held or still hold seems pointless. I don’t say this because we’re all gonna die or some existencial crisis bs; I’m saying this because I believe that life itself is empty. We are always looking for a point in life where we want peace, and most of that peace can be found in self-isolation, just staying in your house or in your room. There’... » Continue Reading
I’ve come too far and it might be becoming too much. I can’t put this feeling into words because it’s too complicated, I have waited too much for things to get better and I’m way too tired to ever think of keeping on. The weight that I carry every day and no one else seems to have it, the way I analyze life and how much it affects me, seeing myself sick everyday and the hopelessness of ever gettin... » Continue Reading
I've been wanting to write about humiliation, but I never really had the words to it; that is until now, as I've been feeling left out by my own life and having to ask for people to give me the least I could expect from someone. All the time it always feels like there are just so many things going on, all around me, people living things and actually enjoying their lives - while I'm just there, doi... » Continue Reading
I remember being a kid, a really hopeful and faithful kid, I'd wake up thinking that I would probably have a good day, I had such a bright spark and I had so many things to do and never complained, I was just the happiest kid growing up. Maybe it's just that I was a child, maybe it's just that I never actually thought about anything at all, maybe it's just the natural innocence of being unaware of... » Continue Reading
Every day is a new day, some people say; but I really don't believe that, every day has been feeling the exact same for a long time now. Every day I wake up at 5am because my parents are always watching something loud on the TV, I bed-rot until 6am when I have to get ready from school, I feel the discontent of acknowledging that I'm sick, I slowly get dressed and I'm always a little bit late. That... » Continue Reading
Well, I said things were probably gonna get better, but keep in mind I said probably. I worked two days at my new job, it was alright, I did everything well and I’m getting less shy at it, it was pretty fun and I quite like it. Health issues have been getting better thankfully, although there’s this one that keeps on making my life hell, but I’ll make it through. Despite all that, I still feel pr... » Continue Reading