A happy resolution

The writer seems to have gotten better now. I’ve been blogging for longer than a month now, talking about hobbies and how I viewed the world around me and how it affected me; especially in the negative ways. But now, things seem to be resolving, I stopped thinking negatively, I’m not sure how but it really seems like things will work out for me again. This is a strange occurrence, I’m truly scared of the future but I can’t stop myself from feeling positive about all this, I genuinely think I’ll start healing.

I’ve been having a psychologist for a couple weeks now, she’s really fun and I really like her. The terrible physical problems I’ve been dealing for months now are finally disappearing, and everything seems to be healing in my life… tho it’s still scary how unsure reality is, how all of those problems could back, how I could start feeling sick again and how I could start feeling suicidal once again; that’s the uncertainty that haunts me while keeping me calm.

Speaking of the uncertainty, it truly depends on how I feel; if I’m feeling upset; I’m glad that it’s an ephemeral thing that might change in a couple minutes… now on the other hand, if I’m feeling good, it could also change at any moment, and that is a very distressing feeling.

But overall, I’ll try and keep you all updated on if things are truly better or not. I just wanna feel in peace again, and feel like a human again.