summer again. i think it’s funny to want to write. the only reason i say this is because there is no motivation, like now i clicked write a new entry, not knowing what i was going to write. i decided not to, but i knew i wasn’t going to get out of bed. so i’m just going to talk about things. literally anything. stevie nicks, im sad she’s not a witch in real life. just a catalyst for one of the bes... » Continue Reading
it’s me when is it not? when my face isn’t enough i leave for a job i upset people a lot without trying i go back to the night the night of tylenol sudafed cetirizine stupid i just woke back up in my bed, face down again, im being self centered is my love insufficient? god forbid i would’ve said the things i say to you about anybody » Continue Reading
remember when the beginning happened? well it's about to happen again. i got a 50 on a spanish quiz today, right after i received three consecutive 100s. i did the work, she knows im a knowledgeable person, im fucking half mexican. i got an email from geoff, which i promise i have all the respect for. the beginning happening again. starting my potential in the industry. labels, records, etc.......... » Continue Reading
We all know the industry is sketchy, but it's the norm at this point. What can I bring that's a spark. I don't want to be like another one of those Lewis Capaldi copycats. American Idol is rigged anyways. It's also damn near impossible to make it on your own, but that's the way I get full creative control. Demos, Voice Memos, and Notes. Lol the industry... » Continue Reading
auditions are scary. somehow virtual ones just kill me even more. even if I don’t pull through, I can still say I tried something that could get me recognized. that’s okay, I have my own music to focus on. I CAN bring something new and nostalgic but fresh to the industry. No matter what I perform. » Continue Reading
There's no greater weight on my soul each day when I listen to my music and it has yet to project me as a person. The main problem is me anyway, or time, or lack of money to visit a studio. I know there is someone/some people, that want to see me grow. I make these promises to myself, not only to manifest, but to work towards my dreams, and they're just getting started. » Continue Reading
There was a time when I would look in any reflective surface and feel guilty. It wasn't my fault, just a matter of whoever wanted to throw shade, words, looks, judgement towards me. Finding you was the best thing that has happened, and whatever motivation I get to write/accomplish comes from you. This new song helps me realize that love comes and goes, but for the time we have together right n... » Continue Reading