and i miss you. everyday, every time i smoke, every time i see a cat i fucking remember you. miss your dainty hands, your deep but somehow fem laugh and voice rings in my head. somehow, someway i find myself retarcing my footsteps and come back to that place where i decided to cut ties and break up with you. it's selfish i know. it's evil well, don't you think i don't know? i want you. i want you.... » Continue Reading
i js finished anora... i get it now. i am both anora and ivan. before i used to think like ivan, chilidish, immature, selfish. i took other ppl as entertainment, discarding them after i had my 'fun' then go to the next. relating to anora is my punishment. my enlightenment. i found myself going back to those ppl bcs i remembered they were the only ones who held me with such affection and i disregar... » Continue Reading
wishful thinking is me working for the knife just so i can buy that house in the middle of nowhere in cordes-sur-ciel. im literally ryan gosling starring in the notebook. the guy who builds that house exactly like you wanted. two story house with a big window in the bedroom just so i can ask you to cover me with your arms when it's windy outside. you know? with our pets while being sorrounded by l... » Continue Reading
hi hii ^^ so i actually got home early and today is such a meh only notable thing today is when i was walking home, some ppl talked to me and asked me if i have any friends... wtf nd wth. they told me they were curious abt me and asked my name and shi... dang ppl think im a loner not a mysterious ho » Continue Reading
currently listening to nyan cat... hi hii ^^ i jgh from school and i am loving the happenings after last period like the way that hard rum was mixed?! oml i want another one!!!! it was so good, like it literally hits the spot omg. but other than that, i said this before and i will say it again. i hate clingy bitches. PLEASE GIVE ME SPACEEEEE. if i can i will say it outright but I CANT BE MEAN DIR... » Continue Reading
hi hii ^^ i jgh from school and wow this was a day. first of all, i woke up early like 9 or 8 am which is alr early in my case and then i js went on here and tried to code- to which is a fruitless effort bcs i really dont get all this,, but hey atleast madoka magica cast is now running at the bottom of my profi;e screen !! also in school i may be late but atleast my teacher dont mind it. she reall... » Continue Reading
i think too much yet understand little. i am eloquent and knowledgeable about many things yet i am still 'dumb and stupid' every moment that lead up to this was a series of rash choices fueled by adrenaline and the 'high' from being a teen going through puberty. unfortunately for me, the present me who chose to grow up and live this life. as a budding young adult who's about to go the real world, ... » Continue Reading
currently listening to ~ slow by uchu nekoko !! hi ! hi !!!!! i jgh from school nd istg oml my feet hurts so BAD/111112!@!@!@!!!! i walked w some of clasmates home and i think wereally stop by that bakery bcs one of my classmates' crush waits there for transpo,, and its so cute bcs they alw buy smth js to prolong the moment of them looking at their crush ^^ i smoked 5 cigs today (?) idk i lost co... » Continue Reading