It's with an earnest fucking understanding that i see why i type and write so much but not as much as I should .it's cuz it's the only time my thoughts don't cut themselves off .People talk about going into spirals but shit I can't even do that .and i'm Not fucking ungrateful either ,cuz I see what spirals do to people i've read tuzumaki (Duh!what kinda stupid kid teenager middleschooler would i h... » Continue Reading
Life is very ritualistic for me. right now i am thinking about the example of me showering, it is a very ritualistic routine for me. i time myself by songs and music )(which thus has a great influence on my life :with the connection between orderly manner and music :not sure how that works but maybe i will figure it out one day)(........ » Continue Reading
liiiiiiiines i got my first paycheck today i am so excited and hap ee also here is a playlist i made i usually make a lot every few days or maybe sometimes in a few hours i can always tell when i am having a hard time when i am listening to the same playlist for the same time i think i will tag things as dreaeams and the supernatural instead of blogging because that » Continue Reading
No matter how she mistreats me i always come back i am like ink under her nails i am like a stick and poke regrett4ed from her youth;something she recalls when asked i am rippling on her ribcage i am in a place she hides am of i any importance 2 her At All » Continue Reading
i walked to the art store by my house where i got my juggalo face paint done on sunday and on the way there i saw many cool beautiful flowers. it reminded me of the flowers i used to use to make flower crowns in middle school. i would sit in the tall grass » Continue Reading
i just fried desserts for the first time, i made beignets and ice cream. it tasted kind of like the funnel cake i had at rehab one time, but there was no powdered sugar in the house so i had to make do. some of them were burnt so i had to toss them but the ones that were not were very yummy i saved some for my mom and my sister. this picture is the strawberry slug, the gymnodorus aurita. i had str... » Continue Reading
i am slowly getting the hang of this website! )(as soon as i said that i had begun to struggle....)( ....... but i think i am slowly getting the hang of it and it feels good because i am learning skills but i will save that talk for another blog p0st! i think milkbread is so yummy when u squish and flatten it and when u toast it and have it with some banana. » Continue Reading
i had a dream last night that i was taking care of 3 dogs including my own... they were puppies 2 were puppies and they were so cute and sweet. this dog is a norwich and i think it should win a prize » Continue Reading
OUR BODiES ARE FALLiNG APART AND i THiNK i WILL FOLLOW YOU VERY SOON.KNOOW THAT i AM SO CLOSE BEHiND YOU THAT iF YOU STRETCH OUT UR HAND, i THiNK YOU CAN REACH ME. » Continue Reading