hello. i went to therapy today and it was alright. :) i'm feeling okay right now. watched some cartoons, ate some pasta, drew some things. i was thinking earlier today about a lot of things but there was one thing i kept coming back to and pondering on: apologizing & forgiveness. there are two people i'd like to apologize to and they're my mom and my ex. yes, they did hurt me badly, but i am not ... » Continue Reading
hello. i didn't get to finish my last entry because i got pulled away. the reason isn't relevant but it's been stressful and annoying. that is all i will say about it. i'm here again because i'm having a not so great time right now. it's sort of related to entry #2 in the way of my relationship with making and keeping friends. it's more about loneliness. i have a therapy appointment on the 30th an... » Continue Reading
hello. i find it difficult to keep friends and i don't understand why. growing up, i was always able to have a bunch of friends, always have someone to hang out with. i don't know how i did it but i did. nowadays it's so difficult for me to find people i think are actually interesting or chill enough to try and be friends with. i've tried so hard so many times to make and keep friends but it alwa... » Continue Reading
hello. i forgot to mention i may talk about things unrelated to trauma/sadness/anger. this one's gonna be about my feelings i have towards someone i know. i have a friend who i would consider to be one of my very best friends and, for the sake of staying anonymous, he's going to be called john. we met ten years ago in minecraft along with a few other friends i still have to this day. my first imp... » Continue Reading
hello. i wanted to expand upon what my page is going to be for so i'm doing that here in this entry. i want to get a few things out of the way: i am not trying to be an arg/creepypasta/whatever. i am not looking for attention. everything i write in these entries will be as truthful as i feel to make them. i am not here to make friends so do not send me friend requests. i'm not looking for sympath... » Continue Reading