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CHEN ☆
"recovering"
im 17, uk based and my dream is to work in a big game one day
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diary #8
Category: Life
i hate being neurodivergent in other words ive been working on a short story to cope with my bad feelings, i hope ill be able to finish it - peace, love and damp tissues » Continue Reading
diary #7
Category: Life
im such a fucking horrible friend i wsh i cousld die the most painful death i deserve nothing i don't know hownpeople acrually want to be with me i throw up just knowing i exist i wish i could change to be someonencompletely different i deserve the worst punishment i don't deserve my friends i don't deserve anything i feel nothing but hatred in my heart for myself I FUCKING HATE MYSELF I CANT DO A... » Continue Reading
diary #6
Category: Life
man why does improving mentally have to be so difficult, sometimes i wish my problems were physical instead so i could just get a surgery or take medication and it would go away, but im stuck with the bad shit that messes with me braaiiinnnn it sucks because i know exactly whats wrong with me and why, and i even know the steps i should take and things to do to get better but i just DONT GET BETTER... » Continue Reading
diary #5
Category: Life
my parents had to book an emergency appointment with the psychiatrist doctor because i cant handle my anxiety anymore and it costed alot of money ._. i feel so guilty and even worse hhhjhjhjjhjhjhjhjhhhj i cant even turn to my friends because theyre also in very bad moods and so i feel so stuck and helpless and worthless and shitty no matter what i do, atleast some of my online friends are ok eve... » Continue Reading
diary #4
Category: Life
jeez...... today was especially awful on my way back home from the hospital i almost got hit and killed in a car chase still anxious about friends, im a fucking disgusting human being, and an even worse friend.. i deserve nothing i need to train my mind to be more confident...... i need to not care about people! i need to be strong! » Continue Reading
diary #3
Category: Life
im getting my braces removed tomorrow after five years , im very very very nervous i feel sick like throwing up... dentists will always be a sensory nightmare... i cant wait until i dont need to go back... im scared to see how i will look without braces “In any given moment we have two options: to step forward into gr » Continue Reading
diary #2
Category: Life
the great part about being an artist is being able to draw vent art and then gay porn right afterwards in other words, my anxiety was better today and i went outside for once ^_^ » Continue Reading
diary #1
Category: Life
this week has been super difficult i havent eben able to leave my room without feeling scared and im just stuck inside my bed 24/7 im never motivated to work or draw anymore, im scared ill grow up to be a hikikomori or something im super anxious about everything and my friends i dont know what else to do other than sleep it off i cant sleep all the time its alot having to worry about my friends a... » Continue Reading