"drawing my favs"
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i feel like ive lost touch with reality, i find it harder to discern my dreams from real life and i can't remember some of my memories, are they real memories? strangely, i don't feel that panicked or anxious about it. i think this is side effects of medication » Continue Reading
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it's been intense i was released from the a&e a while ago, i lost all my strength to live, i can't move or take care of myself and i don't feel complete i lost 4 kilos i somehow got a few gray hairs my mama says it'll get better i hope it will get better » Continue Reading
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it dawned on me that im probably going to read my diary entries in a year or a few months and cringe super hard (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`) lolol after starting antidepressants again i don't think my body is used to it, ive been getting sick a lot so im gonna take it a bit less often it's so hard to not be anxious T_T i constantly feel like my friends hate me and the thought of going outside this weekend makes me... » Continue Reading
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i hate being neurodivergent in other words ive been working on a short story to cope with my bad feelings, i hope ill be able to finish it - peace, love and damp tissues » Continue Reading
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im such a fucking horrible friend i wsh i cousld die the most painful death i deserve nothing i don't know hownpeople acrually want to be with me i throw up just knowing i exist i wish i could change to be someonencompletely different i deserve the worst punishment i don't deserve my friends i don't deserve anything i feel nothing but hatred in my heart for myself I FUCKING HATE MYSELF I CANT DO A... » Continue Reading
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man why does improving mentally have to be so difficult, sometimes i wish my problems were physical instead so i could just get a surgery or take medication and it would go away, but im stuck with the bad shit that messes with me braaiiinnnn it sucks because i know exactly whats wrong with me and why, and i even know the steps i should take and things to do to get better but i just DONT GET BETTER... » Continue Reading
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my parents had to book an emergency appointment with the psychiatrist doctor because i cant handle my anxiety anymore and it costed alot of money ._. i feel so guilty and even worse hhhjhjhjjhjhjhjhjhhhj i cant even turn to my friends because theyre also in very bad moods and so i feel so stuck and helpless and worthless and shitty no matter what i do, atleast some of my online friends are ok eve... » Continue Reading
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jeez...... today was especially awful on my way back home from the hospital i almost got hit and killed in a car chase still anxious about friends, im a fucking disgusting human being, and an even worse friend.. i deserve nothing i need to train my mind to be more confident...... i need to not care about people! i need to be strong! » Continue Reading
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im getting my braces removed tomorrow after five years , im very very very nervous i feel sick like throwing up... dentists will always be a sensory nightmare... i cant wait until i dont need to go back... im scared to see how i will look without braces “In any given moment we have two options: to step forward into gr » Continue Reading
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the great part about being an artist is being able to draw vent art and then gay porn right afterwards in other words, my anxiety was better today and i went outside for once ^_^ » Continue Reading
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this week has been super difficult i havent eben able to leave my room without feeling scared and im just stuck inside my bed 24/7 im never motivated to work or draw anymore, im scared ill grow up to be a hikikomori or something im super anxious about everything and my friends i dont know what else to do other than sleep it off i cant sleep all the time its alot having to worry about my friends a... » Continue Reading
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