diary #7

im such a fucking horrible friend i wsh i cousld die the most painful death i deserve nothing i don't know hownpeople acrually want to be with me i throw up just knowing i exist i wish i could change to be someonencompletely different i deserve the worst punishment i don't deserve my friends i don't deserve anything i feel nothing but hatred in my heart for myself I FUCKING HATE MYSELF I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCJNFYCK FUCK FUCKNFUCKNFUCKNFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK