diary #1

this week has been super difficult

i havent eben able to leave my room without feeling scared and im just stuck inside my bed 24/7 im never motivated to work or draw anymore, im scared ill grow up to be a hikikomori or something 

im super anxious about everything and my friends i dont know what else to do other than sleep it off i cant sleep all the time

its alot having to worry about my friends as well as myself, i wish i could help them but im already in such a bad  state myself i dont know what to do i feel like the most terrible friend in the world

talking to people is so scary i wonder how other people do it so easily

i wish i could disappear and not have to feel anything ever at all, 

maybe i will be reincarnated as a plankton so i can just float around and get eaten by a whale :p