"suffering"
21, USA, he/they
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Category: Life
I haven't been on here much because I don't really talk to anyone (sadly) but just wanted to say that I started meds again and I am excited for that and proud of myself and hopefully things are going to start getting even better. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
like i feel like if i was hotter, or even hot in general, that i would be in a relationship by now and actually have more friends. like, even back in school i was basically overlooked and ignored and now its been so fucking hard to make friends and its like, everyday its harder and harder for me to keep conversations... ugh. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
had the worst 21st birthday that i could've asked for. ever since my multiple breakdowns and meltdowns throughout the night of my birthday, ive been convinced that im not even 21. time has moved, things have happened, my body has changed... i definitely gone through stuff and new experiences and memories but... im... 15 years old. i just am... i cant... im not.. 21..? i dont know. gonna have a tal... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
got my new pc yesterday and im finally able to play minecraft again for the first time in like........ well over 5 years by now holy shit. its been fun but really needing/wanting friends to play with!!! java addition 1.17!! » Continue Reading
Category: Life
not looking forward to being in my Freddy costume ALONE on halloween again. i was already alone last year on Halloween in my Amethyst costume because my friend cancelled on me. Well, old friend. why is it so hard to make friends. is there really that much wrong with me? I know i hate myself but damn. i wish i was a better person. More fun. Better at making conversation? sigh. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
WHEN YOURE SO LONELY THAT YOURE ATTRACTED TO THE SNAPCHAT BIMOJI ANIMATED VERSION OF YOURSELF.... BYE » Continue Reading
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Category: Music
I JUST GOTTA SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE ONE DAY BY LOVEJOY LIKE I LITERALLY GOT "ONE DAY" AND "ISNT LIFE SO FUCKING INCONSISTENT" TATTOOED ON ME HAHHAHAHA YESSSS. appreciation. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
so upset that even watching a show with my only friend- that my brain still makes me to be sad. like i love her and i love spending time with her but my mind was just starting to drift off and i started to tear up for no fucking reason and i had to end the call. i dont wanna be like this. i cant complain about not having any friends except for one but then not have the energy or motivation to reac... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
really wish i had a caregiver so i can regress and be little while not being lonely and being able to feel safe :^((( depression and loneliness has started to kick my ass even more lately (again) and it is so hard to be alone and i struggle to fully regress and get into that space when im alone, it just makes me more sad /: i got coloring books that i would really love to color while on a call wit... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
how the heck r u guys getting ur profiles to look so cool, teach me » Continue Reading
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