Been doomscrolling a lot recently and now my fyp is healing with Dispatch content. There's not much as the hype for the game had died down, but mannn I miss the team. I want s2 to come out already but it needs time to cook. The devs need to make it perfect. I want to continue my routes with Visi (Visi-glazer idgaf), Blonde Blazer and hopefully they through in Malevola as a romantic interest in s2.... » Continue Reading
Fuck… Mardi Gras ain’t what I was expecting, too. Any people for this float and we haven’t even started yet ๐ฅ I didn’t expect this many people to associate on my family’s float… expected some to cancel because of this holiday but nah, they all here. I lowkey want to dip but I can’t because it’s family. This shit ain’t it. Mannn, I should’ve not agreed to come here, but I also don’t like to disappo... » Continue Reading
Can't believe I'm going to be surrounded by couples... on a float... for Mardi Gras. Bruh, they better not drink all the alcohol in the first hour like last time, this year I need it, especially with having to bleed my ears with my playlist from my airpods so I don't have to listen to their party music on the float..... I want one of the couples to break-up, or one of them gets into an argument be... » Continue Reading
Alright, I'm convinced I'm actually terrified of intimacy and relationships. I don't know what it is but I immediately panicked and wanted to run. I had no idea what to say, breathing was constricted... I lowkey wanted to dip. Even when I got some space, I felt rattled on the inside. I never felt like this before, nervous af before but that shit felt extreme. I'm still feel unsettled right now... ... » Continue Reading
I've been re-watching the walking dead (constantly been on re-watch with this show) but I just came to realize how unfazed The Governor is when it came to the walkers... like I truly believe he shown less hesitation to walkers than Negan. But not only to the dead, but he also didn't show any fear to people. Not only did he shoot them with a care, but he just held no emotion as he did so. Everyone ... » Continue Reading
So, I've been in a rut with gaming for the past couple of months. Cod zombies hasn't been much of an interest with random queues and solo plays for high rounds... Pretty much the only exciting game I been enjoying again is Gears of War 3 (DeltaOnline fan made pc port), very well done. Highly recommend joining the Discord server and downloading if you're a Gears of War fan. I know... my age is sho... » Continue Reading
Back in December I came to find out that I’m a fearful avoidant in attachment… which explained a lot with my previous relationships, on my part and my partners’ part. After being with a narcissist and then an avoidant, I fear that I may have developed that fear of intimacy. I don’t know if it’s because I’m generally not ready or that I actually am scared to give it a new relationship with someone ... » Continue Reading