A huge fat circle of constantly recurring events. You may not even notice it or feel a slight sense of deja vu, but all these events are really happening. "Your fate is in your hands," but what if someone controls your fate? Perhaps these events should not have happened at all, you should have followed a different path, but your whole life has been twisted into a vicious circle of eternal repetiti... » Continue Reading
Have you ever felt like everything around you is unreal? Or other types of paranoia? How did you cope with it? I have suffered from paranoia since childhood, I felt like I was being watched, but then I had a sharp remission lasting 3 years, but recently it also ended abruptly. For several months now, once every two weeks, I have been experiencing an attack of severe delirium. I fully realize that... » Continue Reading
Sometimes it seems to me that the world is completely unreal. I filled two paper books with proofs and refutations of different theories and leaned towards the theory of the matrix, and after that everything in my life went awry, as if someone was deliberately spoiling everything. People around you are behaving completely illogically and even bitterly, although everything used to be fine. I'm not ... » Continue Reading
Mainly questions for people who engage in selfharm What started this? Why did you do it and/or continue to do it? How many times have you tried to quit and did you really want to? What is your general attitude towards selfharm, both your own and that of others? Do you consider this something terrible, disgusting? I'm just curious to hear others' thoughts on this » Continue Reading
Okay, this is NOT the best topic to discuss, but I CAN'T keep quiet about it. Previously, I treated this like most people, considered it something forbidden, scary, and was generally afraid to mention it again. But over the years of selfharm, my opinion has completely changed. I've developed some kind of fetish for this??? It's very disgusting, very unpleasant, but I really started to like doing i... » Continue Reading
Have you ever had suicidal thoughts or even attempted them? If so, do you feel ashamed of them? I had a suicide attempt, as you can see, it was unsuccessful, and I am very ashamed of it. I'm not ashamed of the fact that it happened, I can talk about it openly, I'm ashamed of my failure. Sometimes I feel like it would be so much better if my life went to someone more capable. Even after treatment,... » Continue Reading
How do you feel about death? If you were offered the chance to die for a day and then come back as if nothing had happened, would you agree? Would you like to see other people's reactions? Is death really that terrible? Are you afraid of death or its consequences ? » Continue Reading