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Mainly questions for people who engage in selfharm
What started this? Why did you do it and/or continue to do it? How many times have you tried to quit and did you really want to? What is your general attitude towards selfharm, both your own and that of others? Do you consider this something terrible, disgusting?
I'm just curious to hear others' thoughts on this
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XxkorpseprincessxX
It started as a way to cope with overwhelming emotions as it left me feeling calm when I was unable to let out a big long cry, then it sorta became my norm, I tried to actually quit once. But then the adults at my school basically shamed me for it while simultaneously trying to force me to quit overnight, I didn’t want to, I just didn’t want to feel like I needed to hide my scars with hot clothes in the upcoming summer at the time. They told my dad and ofc he wasn’t happy about it, I lied to the school saying that I had already quit for months at the time when I didn’t because i knew that my dad would lash out at me if I had been doing it. So anyways the school told my dad my dad told them to fuck off and the school called cps. Fucking idiots ngl so yeah, (the cps never did anything btw) so I tried quitting after that because I didn’t want to go through that again, but I didn’t because I could do what I wanted. Then i unconsciously quit for a few months, i was just busy and didn’t have the time to do it. But then i started again. So you could say I’ve never really tried to quit, because every time I do and the scars are slightly faded it feels empty. After a while I didn’t have a “reason” for it like how it started. Well I still do it for overwhelming emotions but now I also just do it out of habit or because I just can. I still do it, I’ve been doing it for years now. And I don’t think I’m going to quit anytime soon. It still sucks in the moment but after it kind of releases calm and happy feelings so I keep doing it. At one point I was so stressed before I went to sleep every night that I needed to do it in order to even get a good sleep. Now here I am, more scars than you can ever count because they just overlap each other and some are more faded than others, and honestly last night I did it and was thinking “why am I even doing this? My life is doing better than it’s been in a while and I’m kinda happy. So why?” And then I realized my mind sees scars as a kind of like body modification, like tattoos or piercings. But just a lot more painful. So yeah while it serves as a coping mechanism it also just becomes something I do. And I’m not going to go out of my way to change it. (Don’t get me wrong it still sucks tho..)
Mónaco // Adri
Started years ago bc of anxiety and young internet access yk, I still do it when i dont take my meds x, I also love how scars look, never really tried to quit, just did it bc the psych ward etc. Im neutral ab it on others, but I think scars look pretty cool on me
bonewhiteglory
i do it when im bored and want a kick in my life, also bc i love how it looks
im not talking abt it or tying to get attention from it
selfharm is still gay and stupid tho
YES, that's an absolutely accurate description, I feel the same way
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