The circle of life and nonsense

A huge fat circle of constantly recurring events. You may not even notice it or feel a slight sense of deja vu, but all these events are really happening. "Your fate is in your hands," but what if someone controls your fate? Perhaps these events should not have happened at all, you should have followed a different path, but your whole life has been twisted into a vicious circle of eternal repetitions of the same situations. You will never get out of your problems, all this is just a temporary illusion and sooner or later everything will come back, but with what force? Just turning on repetition would be boring, so creatures from above would definitely modify them in order to drive the lower beings who are so easily subordinated even more crazy.

But no matter how refreshing this circle is, complete chaos will ensue without it. This is an already established system, a failure or a strong change in which will sow too much change in our lives. It will be impossible to withstand, not physically, but mentally. Complete freedom of action, to choose your own path, to finally get out of the eternal circle of suffering and the illusion of benefits–it sounds cool, but only until you feel it on your skin. I can feel my cycle changing with my whole gut and, it seems, even my body. And it's just disgusting. We are so used to this system that real responsibility for our lives will drive us crazy. We are not ready for such global changes, as soon as they fall on your shoulders, your back will shatter in the most terrible ways. It won't cause any physical harm, but you will feel all kinds of pain. Of course, this is only when the circle is completely changed, to varying degrees it feels different. I'm probably delusional again, but something TERRIBLE is definitely happening.