I can’t help but get jealous, I’ve had the same friends for years, I can’t make new friends. I see them make new friends and I’m happy for them but part of me is sickly jealous. I don’t wanna be jealous of it. I just don’t wanna be replaced. I know it’s easy. I’ll do anything though. I’ll change myself, change who I date, change who I like, change what I like, change how I dress. Everything. Ask m... » Continue Reading
Midwest emo music makes me want to rip out my organs and just scream the music louder and louder, it’s not discomforting, it’s comforting and it makes me wanna scream and stab my heart and I’m tweaking rn cuz ts is hitting a little to hard rn- » Continue Reading
The voices got louder but also nonexistent I can hear them but I also can’t. I can’t help but say I’m sorry I say I’m sorry because I don’t wanna be here anymore. I don’t wanna go to school and see the people who fucked me up while they act like nothing ever happened. I don’t wanna wake up and feel shitty for the nightmares. I don’t wanna feel their hands on me. But it doesn’t matter. Never has.... » Continue Reading
I can be guilt tripped, lied to and mistreated, and be aware of that. Yet somehow I’ll still miss you. I miss him, but I don’t wanna get back with him… I just hate that he blames me. “I didn’t want you to feel like it was all of your fault, but I didn’t want you to feel nothing at all.”- Death Cup By Mom Jeans » Continue Reading
I truly hate myself. I just want to be pretty or handsome or literally anything, I just want to be attractive to people and I hate that I’m not. I hate myself for it, and it’s like I’m attractive sometimes and then other times I look like a useless piece of sh!t who shouldn’t be allowed out in public and I don’t understand why I can’t just be attractive. That’s all I want. » Continue Reading
I just want to understand people’s minds, I want to know how they think about things and how they react to things, imagine if you where walking down the street (alone) and someone you knew just popped out at you and then ran away without saying anything more, what would you do? » Continue Reading