Just make it all shut up before I do.

The voices got louder but also nonexistent 

I can hear them but I also can’t.

I can’t help but say I’m sorry 

I say I’m sorry because I don’t wanna be here anymore. I don’t wanna go to school and see the people who fucked me up while they act like nothing ever happened. I don’t wanna wake up and feel shitty for the nightmares. I don’t wanna feel their hands on me. But it doesn’t matter. Never has. I don’t know how to put it into words, just don’t be surprised if suddenly I’m more distant and mean. It’s not your fault. Don’t ever blame yourself for whatever happens to me.