am i faking it? am i really sad or mad or whatever i feel , is it even real? i went out tonight and just bought cigs and walked around the whole night and i didnt feel that bad anymore. is it just cus im in my room , am i making my self believe that im sad? are feelings even real tho like when i feel happy , sad , mad is i... » Continue Reading
low-key wtf does a hug feel like? like what does a hug feel like with someone thats not your family cus whenever i hug someone from my family it just feels awkward. do hugs feel good or like is something your supposed to do to show affection? and why tf did google tell me this after i asked how many hugs you need a day? what google said: » Continue Reading
usually the older siblings go though addiction and all that but all mine are grown up and im pretty sure i was a mistake and im alone on this but im glad it was me and they are successful and get to have good lives even tho i dont really know them :) » Continue Reading
we all know what rain is right? if so you've probably felt that feeling when your laying in your bed and you just listen to the rain. its very calming like you have no problems anyways I will get back to my day. today i went to school i didnt really do anything (I just slept the whole day) and thats really it tbh so yeah bye :) » Continue Reading
like i feel ok but idk its like im missing something or missing someone like i have friends but i cant really hang with them idk they dont like to do the shit i do like i like to go out at night just like to chill and walk and its a feeling you cant anywhere else but i want to be with someone ya know like i want to just go fuck around at night with a friend or something but i dont really have anyo... » Continue Reading
if yall wanna know how to get cigarettes under age well here you go. so basically if you have a friend thats 21 or something just ask them to buy them for you and if they say no or if you just dont have a friend thats 21 then just ask a homeless guy (or girl) and tell them they can keep the change if they buy them for you they most likely will cus they want money ... » Continue Reading
i think the reason i get drunk and get high on Benadryl is because it fills the void and i forget that im a lonely fucking loser also going out at like 2 in the morning is pretty fun :( » Continue Reading
just fucking hell why do i have to be such a failure I get shit grades in school , I cut myself , I smoke cigs , take a lot of Benadryl , and i drink vodka i have a fucking problem and i really cant tell nobody nor do i want to cus idk my dad would prob beat my ass and my mom is the one who gets the shit for me. before school i took Benadryl and i just slept the whole fucking day i have friends bu... » Continue Reading