Friday the 13th, June We went to church today. Mostly, we hoped to take shelter from the suffocating heat we suffered outside. Looking at the great beige walls towering over us, the gargoyles sucking in the sun and spitting it back out, » Continue Reading
And sometimes now I make my bed in the mornings. I read this book by this French comedian and the French comedian talked about how he realized not making his bed was one of the things that kept him deep in depression. And it made infinite sense to me. I never made my bed, for it seemed foolish and pointless if I was to sleep in it again come night. But now I realize that the knowledge of U... » Continue Reading
01.09.2025 - On the Hockney exhibition in Paris "We two boys together clinging", reads the painting in front of me. And it nearly brings me to tears. This Love I have never known, and yet, if only for a moment, I feel as though I have lived it. Oh Hockney, how I long to know it. I know the paintings, and I know the poems, but I can only imagine the rest. "With the rest me intertwined". Tha... » Continue Reading
22.08.2025 In my room. I'm feeling very idle at the moment, and I don't think I like that. Summer is always challenging for me in this regard. main { background: black; color: darkolivegreen; » Continue Reading
21.08.2025 I've always liked train rides. The experience of the known yet unfelt movement. The spectacle of the world moving without you, as if for a few moments, you were not part of it. The body and the space around it, the space within the body expanding to t » Continue Reading
18.08.2025 Hii :) How is everyone? Wanted to take some pics so here you go! I'm so eager for classes to start again, but I also can't shake the feeling that this 2nd year of college will be more demanding than the last. I suppose I'll just have to adapt. _____________________________ » Continue Reading
17.08.2025 Here's a little something I drew in my notes app! It's basically how I see myself, from memory. This isn't my usual art style but I thought it was pretty cool :) main { background: black; color: darkolivegreen; padding: 6px 0px; » Continue Reading
09.08.2025 I used to think I felt a lot. That my heart was like the flesh of a fruit, easily crushed, sliced and digested. And in a way, it is. But it also has skin, hard like bark, and impossible to peel. The only way to penetrate this core is with something sharp, and with force, yet even then one would need to apply the proper technique. But once that is done, I am laid bare, I am open and offe... » Continue Reading
It was a late summer morning, and the land was shining pink and blue when I saw it. There in the white clouds, a sliver of certainty flashed past the train window. Like shards of green leaves slashing past my pupil, like a bird speeding through traffic, like a light flickering in a quiet street. I turned to my friend and watched her mend her skirt. Poke, pull, tie. It seemed to me the sky mended i... » Continue Reading
[Venting] This school year has been so draining. I met so many cool people, made so many new friends, and that is an absolute gift. But I'd come to forget how much I enjoyed my own company as well. Living in student dorms, I'm always surrounded by people, which is lovely but tends to be very tiring. The fact that I now have such a large group of friends makes it hard to be with myself for extended... » Continue Reading