I wish I knew what to draw. I draw occasionally and have been for many years but I still suck. Though I don’t practice, I doodle my persona every now and again because that’s how I process my emotions and it’s usually on an online whiteboard. I don’t have the motivation to draw because it looks so awful every time I actually try to do an artwork, and most of the time I don’t even know what to draw... » Continue Reading
Yes another one, tonight is just one of those nights. I love to write about my thoughts, this used to be rambling to others but I much prefer this. I was always very aware of the fact that I was coming off as self obsessed and yet I always longed to be understood, by myself really. The thought of being understood by someone else sounds like a wonderful nightmare, what a bittersweet thing to be see... » Continue Reading
I think my pfp is amazing. I also find it funny that when I was given the art as a random gift I made a joke about the expression being one I make daily and they said something about “just picking up that vibe”, which is odd since I was trying to act bubbly like I used to but they drew that because that’s how they saw me. I’ll admit I was barely trying at that point to “act” but it still meant a l... » Continue Reading
I was right. People do see me as a downer, all well. Even if I try to hide it people can still tell how much anger i have. It’s funny though, the place is weird without my “pessimistic personality”, it’s not my fault I’m much more realistic than most, even when I choose to ignore my logic and be hopeful out of boredom or the chance something might happen. I understand why people would see me as ne... » Continue Reading
Vent. I am so frustrated right now. I am so isolated and it’s sucks but at the same time it’s so very rare to find people who don’t suck or at least don’t get on my nerves. Maybe that’s why people don’t like me, it’s not like I’m rude, I’m always so kind, in fact up in till 2-3 months ago I was somewhat to nice, to forgiving. But maybe it’s because I’m such a downer, maybe they can tell even if I ... » Continue Reading
Warning cringe. I grow tired of my casual facade. It comes to easily, I turn my brain off, become incompetent for a moment just to get it over with. I long for deep intellectual conversations about questions that don't have defiant answers. I wish to speak poetry, I want our voices to entangle in a dance of thought, that's when I feel true closeness. Speaking of closeness, I have a longing for 'r... » Continue Reading
IDK how to talk to people. I wanna message people but I do not know how to start a conversation. So I made this. Ik i'm a genus. So I just wanted to say that y'all are free to message me. » Continue Reading
Decided to ditch discord and join spacehey, this is much cooler. The no notifications is slightly annoying but also I like it because you arent annoyed by pings and have to check manually. idk the vibes are neato. » Continue Reading
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