My thoughts. /1

Warning cringe. 

I grow tired of my casual facade. It comes to easily, I turn my brain off, become incompetent for a moment just to get it over with. I long for deep intellectual conversations about questions that don't have defiant answers. I wish to speak poetry, I want our voices to entangle in a dance of thought, that's when I feel true closeness. Speaking of closeness, I have a longing for 'romance', it just so happens that i don't enjoy what most have for offer. I fear people have become far to casual with it. If I were to be in a relationship it would either have to be rather chaotic with strong dynamics so it wouldn't be boring at least, or it would have to be something you can only find in poetry so I don't think i'll be getting one because I dont tend to like people all that much and I like my own space. Anyways i'm starting to feel quite ill so thats enough rambling for now.