I'm getting sick again! I guess it really is just better to stay at home, now I get up without doing anything, forgetting it all! I don't know how to pay back, just hurt myself more, or should I ignore it completely so I can escape it forever! That sounds much, ahh I should just forget it! Anyways! Welcome back to another episode of me ranting my sh!t away, we'll start off with my physical health ... » Continue Reading
I need em hoes oh oh my god! I think I've stopped talking to people in general other then my family members for a whole year, so maybe that's why I've turned out this way! It's not that surprising, I just thought I would find it kinda funny because I always thought these kinda issues were rare, but then I! Have it! The issue! I can continue to live like this, or actually get a life and a grip so I... » Continue Reading
I'm looking at myself with all the confidence in the world like hell! Where and when did you get that from! I'll be thinking it's cool and all like oh I'm regaining my self confidence again, no! You are just like any other trying to defend themselves but even you can't argue back! I cannot defend myself at all, if you hit me with a, you're wrong, I cannot fight back even if your reason is I'm ugly... » Continue Reading
I have a ton of homework this week, but you know what assignment excites me the most, art!! That's because I can put references in there and people can see it and that's great! But the subject is expressionism, which I hate! But whatever, the teacher said I could use anything to paint it! That's too much arts I'll just write about something else, like my progress in the gym! Sh1t that's sounds stu... » Continue Reading
Why is no one interacting with me! Probably becauseim rude and blunt! I loudly say things not knowing what it really means, I wrote this once, and now I have to do it all over again! I need to rest, I always said that, but I don't need to, I'm not tired! It's just in the days I have to rest! » Continue Reading
If I don't go there, I will feel useless, if I did go there, I will be tired! Well apparently there are two places like that now! But I still continue to like the middle, travelling there or just thinking about it brings so much joy more than actually going there! I'm getting sick of it, the second place is just useless, what if I kept appearing there but nothing changes! It will be wasted! I brag... » Continue Reading
Oh no I hoped that the teacher will not come to class so I'll have more time to doom scroll and get blamed, they will show up, take twenty minutes to connect the devices then start teaching, this is new right! I normally don't write about school, I don't find it interesting enough, but here I am writing a bit about it! If we didn't have hope or expectations for things, the world would be very exci... » Continue Reading
Again I'm not that satisfied with myself that much! I'll a sign me a job, a task, and a deadline, but that deadline isn't really that serious! Just to make me feel anxious when it's getting closer, and anyone can ruin it! Somebody can say, let's go there, and I'll have to, I cannot go against it! I can't save myself by talking it out, I don't know how to argue, my opinions always get forgotten, or... » Continue Reading
Liking vocaloid is kinda quirky, tf do you mean you like to listen to japanese robots sing about depression and sex! I do like other stuff too that would make me get bullied like, anime, but at least it's in the same country as vocaloid so that makes sense! What else do I like, reading! Like novels and books and not just manga! Japanese crime fiction to be more specific, I'd thank one of my old fr... » Continue Reading
And again I can't morph into a person I want to be, leaving me with disappointment! I'm still not used to it, I can't catch up as much now, I never used to tho, I've always been like this! I just need to ignore it somehow, to focus on something else that has nothing to do with this! So that I can feel good for a bit, just to drop down and accept reality again, I'm not against the real, I just hate... » Continue Reading
I almost quit writing on here, as if that's gonna change anything! My back hurts, school has started and I'm already screwed, I rush a lot near the dead line, even tho I've got so much time left! It's not serious tho, it's just one of those, okay I have to perfect this, kinda thing since I've already learned a lot from last year! As if that will help, I say as if too much, like that one meme, as i... » Continue Reading
I think I'm so cool for delegating my blog and starting over again just because it sounds generic and low-key shows that I'm improving and getting better and not edgier or something! It's no talent to pretend that you're not fine! It's stupid and makes no sense! What do you get from faking, nothing! I don't like that at all! I say as I can only think of one example which is myself which can either... » Continue Reading