i hate preferences

If I see someone i like, i will treat them nice, if i see someone i hate, i wont treat them nicely! which is so annoying! why can't i just think of everyone the same so it doesn't have to get complicated! Now I'm just distancing myself nfrom people i beg them to follow, which doesn't even sound right! I think i dont like it when someone follows me like a lost dog, probably how those people feel about me, but i dont know if i should distance myself more or just forget about it! peopke, no, everyone has boundaries, and i set them too high and big! I'm pretty sure that rancid girl hates me now, i dont even come to her desk when the teacher is not being present! i dont sit with her while eating lunch, i didn't even hope i can hop by and hangout at her house! i only talk to her about things that i want to say, and only nod and hmm when its her turn to speak! Probably because anyone, a conversation is two or more people taking turns telling the other about something! and not like one person listens all the time and the other just keeps speaking! i used to think that was bad, but maybe people actually prefer this way of communication! or is that even and actual thing, i don't know! i can't just say, I don't know, all the damn time!